The holidays have started! :D But i'm no where near the holiday mood. I'm seriously running out of things to do. Its like a cycle...

1.Turn on computer
2.check manga
3.check blog (nobody tags now of these days...)
4.space out debating whether to post or play audition or write my story
5. Get pissed thinking about what to do
6. switch off the com

That's what I do everyday plus reading. Haiz... Now I've an urge to write my story...

Anyway about today. Went to drop off my class choice form. I found it kinda lei chey. Wear uniform just to drop off a form. Then I did that cycle.

Dunno what to do tmr... most probably the same things.

Song of the day: Can I have this dance (HSM3)

It was like the saddest day of my life. I really felt like crying but the tears just wouldn't come out. It's the last day of school. Last time I'll be in the same class with all my classmates in 2/3. Last time I'll be known as a 2/3-lian. Last time I'll be in the same class as my friends... Some last words in case I don't see them or talk to them again.

Clara:
Hey there! Thanks for being the best friend I've known since P5. Thanks for being there for me when I cried over my maths results. Thanks for listening to me. Thanks for bearing with me even though I was too sticky, you didn't say anything. Thanks for everything. I mean it. I hope we can still remain as good friends even when we get seperated into different classes. My last few words is do well, strive hard. If you get into 3/1 and have trouble with getting friends whom you can trust and all (I doubt you will have trouble) Just know that I'll be there to hear everything. In exam time, you can still sms me. Even though we might be in different class, I will still try and cheer you on my friend! I really hope that you won't stop talking to me and all. :D I love you! Have fun in your next class. :]

Mellied:
Hello.. Don't be sad. For two years I've being sort of contacting you and that shows that we can have a friendship even though we aren't in the same class. So I'll really be very happy if somehow we end up in the same class. :D I'm really looking forward to that. Try your best, put your best foot forward, never give up! You have worries and all you can still tell me! I'll be there! I know I've not been replying your smses cause I've been kinda busy teaching my sis and stuff. :D But I really hope you will try even though you might not be able to get into the class you want, it doesn't hurt to try! Thank you for everything. Your smses before each exam, you shared with me everything. And that makes me very happy! Do well in you next class!!! I love you loads, best friend! :D

Joan:
Hey. I know you didn't quite like me in Sec one. But I really want to thank you for accepting me. Thanks for being my friend. For everything actually. Your letter before the exam. Your humour and other stuff that really made me happy. Even though I wasn't really that close to you I really like the friendship we shared. Being a friend to you was more than enough for me. Truthfully, I thought I wouldn't get any friends in Secondary school. I'm not a make friend kind of person. So this is more than I expected. Joan, if you have trouble coping Jia you! Never give up! Sec three may be tough but you can do it! Don't worry too much, you fall, you get up again. So just keep trying! You can do it! I'll still give you a birthday present next year!!! :DD I love you! See you during CCA or if possible when we meet up again!

Lummie:
Hey dear friend! Please don't transfer. I know you might not like the class that you may go into. But having you in another class is better than having you in another school! Its much more harder to contact you. And when we do our O' Level's and its just weird that you won't be there in the same hall as me. I'll really miss you if you leave! It'll be harder to get together with you. You are like the only person that I can watch a movie together with. Cause both of us don't really like a big group. So don't leave!!! Just jia you! I know you worked hard but you can work harder! Try!!!! I really will miss you. But also I want to thank you! You were the first friend I made in Sec one. Thank you for everything. You were there for me and all. Even though it was only two years I reall enjoyed those two years. Thanks for being such a good friend to me! I love you a lot! :D

Thank you all!!! I really hope to be in th same class if I can! I love you guys a lot!!!

Was told about level position this morning. I feel kinda sad and surprised. Sad that I may not be able to get into 3/2 even though I really want to...

Surprised that I actually got a 47. I thought with my sucky results I would get like 50 plus or something higher... Well, this is still not good....

Why can't they make this so much easier... Anyway tomorrow is the last day of school!! Time pass so fast... I'm goona be Sec 3 next year. Kinda scary when I think about it.
Not much to say about today. Will post tomorrow if I'm in a better mood. IF.

I feel so happy today! Not that school was great or anything like that. I'm just glad that Clara was finally honest with me. Last year, I had the feeling that she kind of hated me and so started avoiding me. I felt kinda lonely and depressed and my thought about school everyday was that it sucks.

Finally today she told me she was annoyed with me last year as I was too sticky. That's what I felt too. But no one told me that and so I didn't change. I wasn't really sure if they actually liked me now. As a friend. So being afraid of myself being too sticky again this year I kind of kept my distance. But now, I think things are getting better. :D But I don't wanna put my hopes too high. I really don't want to feel like how I did the last time... Its.... well you know. Well, at least I got this out of my chest. And I think Joan is okay with me now...

Next thing on my mind is my streaming. I'm scared I can't get into 3/2. I really want to go there but its popular so I don't think with my level position I can actually make it there. And I'm feeling really mixed up feelings for leaving my class. On one side, that's what I've been hoping for since sec 1 because I felt lonely then. But now, things had changed. So one part feels sad that It's highly unlikely for my great friends I made in this class to be in the same class as me.

I'll really miss you guys. You guys were great! LOVE YOU ALL!!

I'm gonna make tmr the best day of my life! GO 2/3! LAST CLASS EVENT WE'LL BE DOING!!

Went to Gwen's house today for dance pract.

At first I was like huh? Through out the whole thing. It was only like an hour later did we get the first part down. For me, I'm going the jigger bug or whatever you call it. But the others are doing hip hop. The moves were quite cool. I kinda wanted to do hip hop but the moves were easier and stuff so I was dumped in the "ladybug" I was the only one who got the moves right after the first few tries. Yay Me! Haha. Sorry didn't mean to boast. I was so tired after the practice. After my group got almost everything right, I went into the hip hop practice room where clara and the rest were practicing. It wsa hard I have to admit but Clara thought me some and I thought it wasn't that bad. The song wasn't that nice, it was okay for me.

A friend of my dad's came over and is still here now. He's the one who is the manager of the game we played just this year. The business one. He brought some over too. There is actually three segments. One for primary, one for secondary and the last one is for adults. Quite cool right?

Okay, I'm gonna watch my show. Tata for now!

The stupidest thing happened to me today. I went to cath class and had to take a bus back.
Only when I was about to leave from my grandparent's place I found out that I forgot to bring my wallet. How stupid was that? Before I left my parents house, I even confirmed with them that I was taking the bus home.

Silly me left the house without checking if I had my wallet with me. After that, back to grandparent's place, I took like one dollar plus. Before that I only wanted 55 cents. Cause isn't that the price?

Then, I took out 60 cents and dumped it at the coin slot when I entered 163. I stood by the ticketing machine and waited for the bus driver to press the button. But he didn't do anything then I stared at him. I gave him the O.o look. Then he noticed me and asked me, where's my card? I was like are you blind? I didn't bring it or else why would I pay by cash. But of course I didn't say that. I said I forgot to bring it and he gave my a questioning look. Before asking. How much you put inside? I replied 60 cents. He then asked me in a very irritated way where I was going. I was already damn worried by that time. I was like Yio Chu Kang and then he was like YIO CHU KANG IS AT LEAST $1! I was like O.O okay!! Seesh, he didn't have to shout.

So stupid....

Oh. I really want to get the latest Daniel Powter cd. :D

Yesterday I felt very angry and today I feel damn sad and depressed.

I'm content with Lit and Chinese. I'm very happy with English.
But I'm damn sad with maths.

I got a b4. I was so expecting to get at least 70 and over. Depression.

If I could drink drunk I would.
I would cry my heart out.
I would sleep or do anything to forget everything.

Freak this day. I knew it from the start. Instinct told me I should not set foot into the school compound today. But I ignored it. Such a smart move.

I forgot my form and I think I lost it. That started my panic one.

Next, Rachel didn't come. Surprise surprise. She was already sick on sunday. Why didn't she tell us? If she knew she was not coming telling us in the morning is not helpful. And since she told us at the last minute that she couldn't come who was going to present? Panic number two on the role.

That I can still take in. But the worst is what clare did. I mean at the level two there, I was panicking like shit and asking what to do, deciding who to present. I was thinking of nut and then clare came upstairs so I was like Clare come here. Help me to decide that kind of thing and she just looks at me like she's on the verge of crying and just left! SHE FREAKING LEFT ME THERE TO SETTLE EVERYTHING!

I went back to class with Shipei they all to get the script I thought maybe she had something to do that's why she left me. Then I called denise and nut to settle things. I thought Clare could help me with the script cause when I was online discussing with them on the script I wasn't there most of the time cause I was having dinner. She just ignored me. SHE FREAKING IGNORED ME! I was like WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!

I talked to Lynette, found out that clare actually didn't want things to be pushed to her. I was like okay that I understand. But I was bloody panicking and thinking of substitutes and ways to deal with it. I needed her help with the script. Fine with me if she doesn't want to do it. Fine by me if she doesn't want to say it. But the very fact that she chose to ignore me pisses me off. I mean I was outside. FREAKING STANDING OUTSIDE, PANICKING. and what does she do? Just ignore me. OH I'M SO FINE WITH THAT.

If she just says that she's not doing it. Okay so it'll be. She won't do it. I will gladly do it if she just freaking tell me what to say!!! I was hardly there when they discussed it.

After that she freaking acts as if nothing happened. Oh it's over. And I was expecting an apology or something. I mean come on!!! Even though Denise or nut didn't want to do it they were helping me think of a freaking solution!

And lynette was like her messenger. Clare is scared. She's scared. Well, Clare, if you knew I was angry then you should apologise and not act like everything is okay. IT WAS NOT FREAKING OKAY!!!

I just feel damn betrayed. Am I that mean to always pass everything to you??? Passing you the job of presenting was the last thing I had on my bloody mind.

I really am lost. I dunno what to do now. I don't even know if I should be angry or just damn sad.

Hey peeps! Changed my blogskin and song. Just thought it was time to change. Haha.

Okay about today, I went out to Junction 8 to watch a movie; HOUSE BUNNY! It was very funny. Went to watch it with King Kong. We were suppose to meet at 1:45 but I was late and King Kong was later! Hahaha. I went to rush to get the tickets only to ans a call from King Kong saying she's still at SGH. I was like WHAT?!? Haha. But anyway we got into the theater on time. The commercials were still rolling when we got to our seats.

I think today is some special day for me. I kept bumping into people! First I saw Ms Puja when I got of the bus and I was like O.o Was that who I think it was? Haha. Then on my way into the mall I saw Joan's cousin and then while queuing up to buy popcorn I saw my cath class friend. I pretended to didn't see and who knew? I entered the cinema and I saw her sitting in the row behind mine. At first I was finding my seat number in the dark and suddenly she calls out my name. And after the show on my way out I saw Judith. Haha. So many people in one place. Hahaha.

On my way home, I didn't know why I had this deep gut feeling that I was going to die very soon. And when I was in the bus I was like considering. What happenes if a car hits on the side that I'm sitting or the other side or the front or the back? How severe will the injuries will be? Will be nice? Maybe it'll help me nullify my thoughts. It's really stressful. I really don't know why. Its those days that I don't want to think at all and it really hurts. All the what ifs and all. Plus tomorrow is results day. Its so stressful. There is results need to look after my sister makes sure she studies and in addition with my mum screaming to mark and all. That is why I don't feel like living sometimes. Not that I'm goona commit sucide or anything. But on these days I really want to shut down.

Ryan Cabrera - I will remember you
Eight years later
Time goes by fast
Got my memories
And they will last
I try to keep it simple 'cause I hate goodbyes

I try to keep it simple by telling myself that
I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I could say
But words get in the way so
We're not together

I will remember you
I will remember you

We're a picture in my mind
And when I wanna find you
I just close my eyes
You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cause
You'll never be that far from me
I'm telling myself that

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I could say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you

You were there when I needed a friend
Thank you, thank you
I never told you how much that meant
God thank you, thank you

I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I could say
But words get in the way so

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I could say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember
We're not together
I will remember you
I will remember you

Exams are over!!! Today is the official day that i post on this semi-dead blog of mine! :D

Well, things weren't really great at start. When i came back from school I went to use the com and open the wonderful list I created! On all the anime and manga and books to read and watch! So from my big big list I picked an anime. Pity D Gray man has ended... sigh. and the ending sucked... But they say its only cancelled for the time being. So i'm waiting for it to come back :]

Okay enough about anime. Hahaha. After watching for a while the stupid megavideo forbade me to watch more... bloody thing. they said that I've watched 1169 mins of video and I had to wait a bloody tooty 2 hours before I could watch more!!!! I was damn pissed. I didn't even watch thagt much!!! 6 episodes was only 3 hours!!!! And after that, my mum came home. Gotta admit it was weird using the computer in front of her. haha. But then there came the scoldings again. Sigh. So stupid. She came and tell me to go and mark my sis's work and that's what i did. She only told me about english and so that was what i marked. And being the... ARGH!.. she is. she comes and scold me for not teaching my sis, not marking in time so she could teach my sis the mistakes.
For heaven's sake! I'm not even her freaking teacher! n I didn't even enjoy the first day of being exam free....

I think i'm rambling on... Hahaha. I shall stop. Anyway i only posted to pass time while my show was loading!!! GO ANIME!!

Anime of the month: Xxxholic