Portal Back In Time

I just realised how hard it is to keep blogging everyday since I come home tired and really reluctant to type my day out but if I don't, I think I'll really forget all the little incidents that might have happened. Today was one such incident.

It all started at the beginning of 2013 where we stopped talking ever since I felt like I was a substitute for you whenever you had nobody to go out with. But things changed during results day where we finally started talking again. I had to admit, it was extremely awkward. Thoughts like "What do I say? Where do I start?" actually ran through my mind. I don't think I'll ever tell you that I saw you on the bus. That I knew you were sitting at the front with your friend. That I pretended to look at my phone when you got up. That I stole glances to see if you actually saw me. That we took the bus to the side gate just to avoid you. Truly, I regret what I did and I'll confess that that isn't what a best friend should do.

When you arrived in school, you sat next to me like it was the easiest decision that you had to make and i really did not feel comfortable and I think you knew too. I had no idea what to say, fearing that what I say might hurt you instead. True enough, you started the conversation first and I thought things might not be that bad. After that, I promised that I would text you but I decided to text you on the next day and by like 7pm that day you said you couldn't wait for my text. Haha. Then you started telling me how you were waiting for me to initiate a conversation in the past 2 months then nothing happened.

At that time, I really wanted to go back to time to right my wrong but there will not be some hidden time travel portal that will pop up from my garden. Though I wished there would be one and I would have just forgiven you on the spot and started our usual conversation the week after though I'm pretty sure you will complain a lot but hey, everyone has their weaknesses right?

When you told me how awkward it had become between the both of us, it would be a lie to say that I didn't agree. But being myself, I am always willing to start off the conversation with where we left off and be as open as I was the last time. Though we might not have been talking much, I am pretty much the same person you knew for 2 years. But it did sting when our 2 years of friendship just crumbled when we did not talk for 2 months. I'm sure it will take a while to mend it back and I am hoping it is before you fly off for an overseas uni.

Just when I wished for a portal back in time, I think that opportunity came today. Though it might not have been the literal sense of me going back in time to talk to you in the 2 months, I felt that we really became closer after spending almost an entire day together! I definitely was hesitating about today since it will be kinda awkward especially since the last time I met you was like during results. Today, I can say that we ate good food, talked and laughed a lot! (A side point, I recommend Ippudo Ramen at Mandrine Gallery. It's superb! Go early to avoid the queue! :D) Like a portal back in time, I finally caught up to the present with you and it was as if that 2 months had never occurred. I really did enjoy talking nonsense with you and just sharing very random thoughts that came to my mind. I am really glad that I didn't give this opportunity a miss and neither did you.

Even though a time slip to the past do not exist, I do believe that opportunities to do what you couldn't do in the past really do exist in the form of a "time slip" in the present. As I found out today, for a "time slip" to occur, it must be the person who wishes for it to occur to take a courageous step forward and do what you regretted not doing.



Afterall, why regret not changing the past when you can change the present?