Been a while hasn't it?
Its officially 6 more days till 2011!!!!
o.o fast. I can't even believe it!
Weird thing about today is that I'm feeling extremely happy and cheerful today! In fact its worse than weird.

Anyway. wanna hear my new year resolution? I aim to stay strong whatever may happen in JC/Poly. Stay cheerful and never pull a down face longer than an hour!!!

Quite cool eh?

Life may suck, so? deal with it.
Life may throw the wrong cards, so? keep switching till you receive the right one.
Life may be a rocky ride, so? Buy a posche and enjoy the ride!
Life may be a winding staircase taking you round and roung, so? Take a step at a time
Life may have a pile of laundry blocking you, so? Wash them one by one, who's complaining? Time is God's not yours, so why can't have the time?
Life is a bed of roses. Nice on the outside but always covered with thorns. How to deal with the thorns? Friends are like the clippers to snip off the thorns and help you feel more comfortable.
Final say? Screw the troubles and worries and enjoy the present!

(That's what I feel. Screw the obsticles, love the present :D)

Today, as I looked up at the clear blue sky with my heart thumping wildly after cycling up the hill.
I was thinking how many, who are dear to me, are staring up at this same sky?
Even though today wasn't that great, I still thought,
I am happy to be right here, right now. :D

Yesterday was EPIC. Rosh bet with me that she wouldn't be late but rosh being rosh still came late. Haha. So in the end we got her to pay for GST. Hahaha. We were supposed to shop at novena that area but there wasn't much so we went to Bugis instead. Bfore that though, we had lunch at Seoul Yummy awesome korean food!!! Haha. Rosh ordered some spicy chicken thing which came first but when most of us finished, she was barely half way done. I need to hand it to her for her talent in eating so slowly. Haha. In a good way. She wanted to prove to us that she could finish it in 8 mins but being her, it never did work out that way. :D





All of us at the restaurant. :D Then came the bill part. Haha. Mari and Rosh were busy in their own world talking about Iphone and the greatness of it. So, Averil, des, sherm and I decided to spilt the change among all of us. So Des calculated and we were suppose to get 40 cents back. Haha. I had tons of 5 cents thanks to a certain someone. So I swapped some of the coins and in the end there was 6 5-cents coins and 1 ten cents and a twenty cents coin. Yup, when those two found out that they had to spilt the 5 cents coins they fought. HAHAHA. They almost tore the receipt. Well, some pics of it. :)









Yup. That was how the receipt looked like in the end~ Anyway, at Bugis St. We walked the whole place and I think we ended up where we started off at least 3 times bacause it was so crammed with shops that we turned here and there only to end up at the same spot. Haha. Bought 2 hairbands to go with my new year clothes.. I actually bought a sleeve-less shirt that looked so cute but when I tried it on, I looked weird. So now it's my sis's. Hahaha. So nice right? After shopping for about 2 hours, we sat down at Mos, only to play hangman on the Iphone. Hahahah. Funny thing was each of us were getting words from dictionary.com and testing each other. We spilt into 2 groups, Rosh,des,me and Averil,mari,sherm. Haha. Should've taken pics then too... Oh well...

Anyway, on to the next topic. TODAY! Well, went for my 2nd bloodtest in my entire 16 years of my life. So had to wake up at 8. Funny thing was the night before, I had a nightmare about the stupid bloodtest that invovled stabbing myself with an arrow and a pencil to draw blood out. Yup. Not pleasant at all. Back to my point. Left the house at 8:45. Got my shot at 9:55. I went there with the impression and my dad telling me that it would be the same as the blood test I took a few years ago when the doc thought I had dengue. It was the pricking of the middle findger type. So I thought how bad could it be? HA. Apparently it was the syringe type when the nurse probe your arm to find your vein and stick the syringe in. The one I dread and never had before. So it was a not so nice experence with me panicking at first. I found out today that I can't stand looking at people drawing blood out. Haha. They placed a band-aid at the wound there. I can actually take it off now but it's aching. So I dare not touch it. According to my dad, there will be a blue-black. Haha. More of a blood clot under my skin actually.

So far my day has been...interesting I guess. After the appointment, we headed off to Holland V.!!! Haven't been there in a long time. Had Nasi Lemak for brunch. Since I had to fast for the blood test and it was already 11 by the time we reached there. Thus, we had BRUNCH! Haha. Got to see the famous windmill!!!! While driving home, I saw this.



Can you believe it? DBS next to Citibank which is next to Standard Chartered which is next to HSBC. Seriously, 4 banks in a row? I was so amazed that I had to take a pic of it!!!!! HAHAHA.

Guess I shall stop here for now. Been a long post! :D Hope I will be able to catch up on my sleep later. He he.

For a very special friend who is troubled with too many things happening at once.
Just to let her know, I don't blame you. I understand that you don't want to tell me but I want you to know that I'm always here.
I love you. :D

'Things are gonna get better'- David Archuleta

Everybody's got that time in their life
When everything hurts and nothing's right
But you gotta walk on,yeah you gotta walk on.

Everybody's got a piece of their heart
That's been stepped on and torn apart,
But you gotta be strong,Yeah, you gotta walk on.

'Cause I, know, it's hard to have the strength and,
Sometimes,You can't get through the day but,
Things just float on by like a river in the night.

But I know things are gonna get better,
And I know things are gonna be fine.
And I know life is gonna get better,
Standing here together,
Yeah, we're gonna be fine.

Everybody's got that one regret no matter how they try, they can't forget,
But you gotta move on,yeah, you gotta move on.
Everybody's got someone they've lost,
And they can't believe they're really gone
But you gotta live on, yeah, you gotta live on.

'Cause I know it's hard to have the strength and,
Sometimes all you feel is pain but,
time keeps floating by On that river in the night.

But I know things are gonna get better,
I know things are gonna be fine
And I know life is gonna get better,
Standing here together,yeah, we're gonna be fine.

I've been shown hope,we've seen it in your eyes
So take me, touch me,
'Cause with a little bit of love we can win the fight,
With a little bit of love we can see the light,
With a little bit of love it'll be alright.

And I know things are gonna get better
And I know things are gonna be fine
And I know life is gonna get better
Standing here together,Yeah, we're gonna be fine.

Walk, walk, walk the line,
And keep, keep, keep walking on,
Keep, keep, keep walking on...

How bout a lil' story?

There was this girl who was shy and quiet. She was that way for 14 years before she decided to change the following year. She pledged to speak out more often and smile. So the first day went with her trying to talk to almost everyone. In fact she was happy with the effort made and thought, "Hey, I may actually love it here." And so a few days passed before the next ecounter that changed her life.

It was at a bus stop. The day was fairly alright. With the usual nagging and homework given by the teachers. The girl was quietly sitting at the bus stop, thinking about what she should do when she reached home. A few minutes later the bus arrived. She looked up and something nudged her to glance at the queue. Just seperated by one stranger, a girl wearing the exact same uniform was standing behind and for a moment they just stared. Until the other girl raised her hand to wave and flashed a smile.

This girl on the other hand was momentarily stunned. The only thing she could do was smile. :D <- a big one like that. But in her mind, frantic thoughts went through her head. Questions such as 'Do I know her?' and 'Have I seen her before?' ran through her mind. So she looked back at the bus and started moving down the queue to move up the bus. She then sat at the middle of the bus near the exit while the other girl walked up to the end of the bus. Being shy, she didn't dare to look up. For the 15 minutes journey home, she kept her eyes locked on the floor, feinting interest in her own file that she carried. When her stop came, not knowing if the other girl was still in the bus or not, she hurried off the bus, blushing in embarassment for not recognising the girl. So that was the start. The start of a friendship which would last for a lifetime.

Want to know the ending? Well, you've just got to sit and watch. All I can say is that the main girl went through a lot of ups and downs. Experienced the pain of losing a friend and making new ones. The joy of forgiving and forgetting. The other girl on the other hand played a main role in this girl's life, encouraging her and teaching her the fun in life. What happens to these two girls? Let's just say they became the best of friends.

(Sweet story, isn't it?)

Let's say yesterday I wasn't feeling that great.
It was a downhill for me.
Anyway, last night was fun!!!!

Really sad that the sailing mates I've been with for 2 years, who've seen me at my worst during the competition and gave me the encouragement to continue and complete the course, will be finally going our seperate ways. For one, it was the most interesting dinner I ever had. Then again, dinner with my team is always entertaining. xD We ate at Seoul Garden at City Square Mall. He he. The waiter there was blur? I noticed a trend among trainee male waiters. They are blur, stone face and very much unhelpful.

On the bright side, our table broke the record of being the messiest in the restaurant! Hahaha. Seriously, when I went with Clara to the washroom, we were looking at the other tables, boy were they neat. Well, probably due to the fact that we had 6 people squeezed at a table meant for 4. Haha. The waiter wanted to split us up which will then totally defy the need for having a team dinner...

Anyway, we took tons of pics with Cleris's cam. Joy really hogged the com taking pics of herself. Hahaha. Spent most of the time playing with the 'Fish eye-view' function. HAHAHA. Hilarious.

It was really sad, I think that night will be one of the nights I would cherish and remember. Come to think of it, shall I do a list of one of the best nights in my life? Haha. No order.

1. Yesterday night.
2. Averil's house after her confi.
3. Grad night.

Yup. So far that's my list for this year. :D

You know what.
I thought it was different.
I thought we were closer.
Guess it was a lie.
We are back to square one.
What difference does it make?
Whatever happens, happens i guess.
I've given up trying to bridge the gap.
Given up trying to change your mentality.

Many things happened this whole week. First half of the week anyway. Let's see I have 20 mins there about to crap out everything that has happened. :D

Monday had the sppointment. THE appointment. Then met up with Tze An to watch Harry Potter!!!! It was awesome~ But next year, I would probably forget what happened. Haha. It was tiring yet fun.

Yesterday was the best! Averil and Cheryl came over for a "movie marathon". Sadly, we only watched 2 movies. Haha. BUT, I was content!!! Cause I finally finished PEARL HARBOUR!!!!!! The ending was "tragic" (Quote from Rosh) I was really sad that the guy died. Anyway, when I told my aunt I finished pearl harbour. She was shocked before asking me "the romantic version or history version?" Eesh. if I told her I watch the history one she would be amazed at my interest in history...

Anyway, after lunch, (which was horrible. The service there was horrible. Overall, I'm never stepping in there again unless another waiter/waitress works there.) went to help Cheryl and Averil find Mari's present. In the end decided on a DIY box that is in a shape, design rather, of a CAKE!!! So cool right? Sounds easier than creating it. Summary?

- Used our hands and had dark brown damp "clay" stuck all over our hands.
- an hour to finally get the brown stuff into a dry nice ball.
- an hour to get in unto the box itself. (Cheryl's talent)
- Yellow lines were made!!! With exact measurement! (Averil's talent)
WANNA KNOW MY TALENT? Able to make Averil laugh by laughing. :D
- Another hour gone by trying to put it together.
Eventually, IT WAS DONE!!!!! GREAT JOB PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Treated ourselves to ice cream~~~~

Today, celebrated Mari's birthday!!! Reached Somerset super early. But timed it such that I actually bumped into Averil. Hahaha. GOOD TIMING!!!!
Anyway, watched Easy A. Funniest show so far. I really laughed a lot in this one. Haha. Up next is definitely Rapunzel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One can fake many things.

I faked my laughter.
I faked my happiness.
I faked my personality.
I faked my tears.
I faked my hugs.
I faked my words.
I faked my thoughts.
I faked my enjoyment.
I faked my tiredness.
I faked my joy.
I faked my messages.
I faked my feelings.
I faked my smile.
I faked my look.
I faked my tone.
I faked my interests.

In fact, I can fake everything and anything,
The only thing that I can't fake is faking itself.

It feels nice to know that there are actually some people out there reading my mundane blog. >.< So I'd like to say, THANKS FOR READING!!!! It kinda gives me a warm feeling that I'm not just writing to myself. Hehe.

Anyway, I had a weird dream yesterday... about my mum and brother in some funny storyline. Sucks that I forgot. Anyway, three words, it was weird. Well, time is passing by damn fast. Who knew it'd be Dec already? Sigh. It's tiring to go on and on about what i'm doing today and all, so I shan't touch that topic today. Thinking about it, it's been a long time since I posted a song right? Then again, youtube isn't my best friend...

Anyway, want to know how awesome google is? I was watching naruto shippuuden and I was dying to know if Gaara died. So I decided to try google since it's EVERYONE'S BEST BUD!!!! I was skeptical about the search but who knew there were actually people like me who were curious on what might happen? I typed, "Did Gaara die" and really! Poof! There were like 100+ hits and they had the answers!!!! xD Even my mum couldn't believe it.

I'm trying to will mself to hate sasuke cause he's gonna be a bastard for the rest of the show... but it sucks to have him becoming so cool... Okay, that was random. Haha. Anyway, on the 10th they're gonna have STGC!!!!! Somehow, I manage to get an email for getting a free ticket but I have to be one of the first 1200 people. Sigh, thinking about queuing up with those desperate people is making me hesistate. Plus, I'll be going alone... I shall slowly think it through then...

Been kind of a long time since I last posted. I wasn't really in the mood to post today but doing blogsurfing changed my mind. I think the start of Secondary school life is kinda depressing. Anyway, today I was clearing my books, (deciding on what to burn and give away and what to keep) then I stumbled unto my sec 1 drama journal. As I flipped through the pages I was wondering was that me? Those childish writing ways that lacked sophication and were filled with expression. That was the 13 year old me. Funny how I don't remember what I felt like while writing those entries.

As I look back, I think they did have a reason for not liking me. I mean, I don't even like myself then. Personality I mean. Now, I feel that I've changed a lot. 4 years sure changes one. Really, if I had a choice I would not want to re-live my Secondary 1 life. After a year, it was much bearable as I learnt to let go and move on my own strength to meet new people and soon they became my pillar of support. Looking at my 08 journal, I saw that without those people by my side I would loath Secondary life.

Well, this is kinda getting depressing right? So I shall talk about happy stuff. Yesterday went to ecp to cycle. Had tons of fun!!!! Took a few pics but sadly, I don't have the USB cable to download the pics onto this com. So it has to wait for the weekend then. xD

Guess I shall stop here. Wanna watch chopped. >.< Awesome show. :D

Just want to end with a line that I saw in a shop that I found very useful.

For those who have been insulted, trying saying this to them:
"If I wanted to talk to assholes, I'd fart."

Things have been rather hectic these few days... so I apologise for not posting anything. >.< Well, I've some interesting news!!! I cut my hair!!!!! He He. Plus a finge too. Anyway, I shall stop beating bout the bush and whack it head on. (Drumroll....) I'm gonna post the long awaited NZ photos!!!!! Finally managed to get my camera fixed, turned out it was the charger... But anyway. Its back to tip top condition and so this morning I manage to import the photos into this com!!!!

I can't really rmb much as to what happen since it was a year ago... Who cares about explanations right? A picture paints a thousand words. So many pictures will paint a whole thesis. xD

It's the mid-week!!! This week has been sort of busy, you could say. With monday hanging out with my friends at the zoo. Man, they changed a lot... Seriously, I never knew there was actually a bus that went to the zoo! All my life I thought that the only way to go to the zoo was by cab or car.

Anyway, it was really fun, with me spending like $60 there. Hahaha. We spent most of the time sitting in a restaurant and talking. >.< Sheryl had some inspired art thingy and created some pokemon looking thingy (to me) with straws,lemon and a stirrer.Well, I do agree that it does take some creative juices to create that (which I lack very much...) Regret not taking a photo of it. Hahaha.

Yesterday was kinda horrible? Starting my day of with piano... Which was really really bad... my second piece was not smooth at all.

oops. gotta go for breakfast. Will continue soon!!

Stephanie, you are the smartest person ever.
Not only did you get yourself in a mess in maple but now have a phobia of maple.
wonder why?

this weird guy asked me to be his gf and I was thinking wtf. But he kept begging and pleading and I wanted to get the quest over and done with. So I thought fine. What could be worse?

Well, him giving me a retarded nickname which I so happen to use on my sis. So everytime he calls me that, I felt like telling him, you wanna talk to my sis? Well anyway, so the two of us and another guy decided to hunt for Astaroth. Only when I reached there did I find out that none had a gas mask to enter. How perfect? I wasted time hanging out with weird ppl and somehow got a boyfriend.

Wanna know my solution? Avoid. Them. The only wayis to stop using that character. But I think of all my hardwork and stuff just piss me off even more. I so regret saying yes. Cause that guy turn out to be some rude, obsessed person. Sadly, his personality is on my hate list. So yup. Not liking this one bit.

I think this is a sign that I should go back to GE where there are NORMAL players and not DESPRATE ones willing to date any jane doe on maple.

This MUST seriously blow over soon.
On a last note, I'm banning myself from maple.

Today was the first time I went to church after the exams. It was really weird as for the first time, the hall was actually empty! With many only coming in after mass started. I couldn't really concentrate on the homily as my sister was making a lot of noise and there was this 4 year old boy staring at us all the time...but some words actually hit me.

The question "Have you ever defended your catholic faith?" ran through my head many times after mass. Truthfully, I've never ever done it before. Friends, family, strangers. Yes, I've defended them. But faith? That was when it hit me that I've never done it before. The next queStion that came to me was why? Why haven't I done I before? Another phrase was that everyone is a thief. We steal heaven; a place for ourselves. We steal others' time... Does that make us different from real thieves? Who steal material stuff while knowing? While we on the other hand steal something that may seem as nothing but in fact is a gift for us, unknowingly.

Well, I went to church in hope that I would sort out my thoughts about certain issues but it didn't... Have you ever felt that someone close to you is slowly drifting away? You want to stop it but you can't. In the end you widen this gap and push that person even further from you? That's how I'm feeling now And I hate it. Why in the world am I getting jealous? I shouldn't be feeling this way but I can't help it. It's not that person's fault but I'm angry at the person. I really have no idea why I'm feeling like this... It feels as if a kin of mine is being taken away and I can't stop it.

Anyway, played maple and this rude bastard just pissed me off. He wanted me to switch chAnnel which I was about to and this smart ass decided to threaten me sayin he'll take out his main. Like I freAking care? What can your main do to my charac? Since when do YOU own the freaking map??? Would it hurt to ask nicely? Will it kill you? That Ass of a guy seriously pissed me off after that. If I hadn't seen whAt he wrote after I switched channels, I would have said all the vulgarities in
the diff languages if I could.

Feeling tired and pissed.

Just back from Averil's house after grad night yesterday. Really tired. On top of that my eye is aching (if an eye could ache) I mean it hurts everytime i blink and it's as red as a tomato.The weird thing is that its only half!
I have this weird thought that it was because of the pillow I was sleeping on poking my eye. That's why in the morning it was sore. But then again the reason sounds ridiculous. Hahaha.

Grad night was okay. The food was not too bad but I feel that it wasn't really worth my money. But everyone looked damn diff and pretty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *squeal* Seriously, my class is filled with pretty, gorgeous people!!!! It's kinda sad to think that yesterday night was the last time I'm gonna see the scholars this year. Really sad, I'll miss many of them!!!!!!

Anyway, back to today, we watched like at least 4 movies with some being really stupid, actually it's just one. Played Uno Stacko too!!!! Damn fun!!!! (Though I lost the most number of times) Then again its luck. Hahaha. We shall have a rematch Averil! >.<

Tomorrow there is personal taste!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Can't wait for next week!!!!!!



At this point in time, I'm really missing everyone.

You can say that time really went by very fast. To the point where I thought it was still monday today.

Yesterday's chalet left me with mixed feelings. Sure I had fun but the packing up always sucked. I was bringing home melted ice cream yesterday and it was HOKEY POKEY!!!! AWESOME ICE CREAM FROM NEW ZEALAND!!!!!! On top of that, yesterday I was really really tired. But it was fun!!! Dropped by Cheryl's place after the chalet to get maple from her. >.< plus audi and a few other stuff. Hahaha. Tried playing residence evil after such a long long time.... Well, my techniques weren't that great but I could still shoot! HE HE. Who knws maybe I can joing shooting the next time round. Hahaha.

One thing's for sure I hell don't want to be insulted by her bro again... Haha, I mean his insults were kinda true I can't blame him cause after all I SUCK at maple. Yup, an online confession from me. But I can't help it right? Since I HARDLY play any com games. If you actually manage to get me hook on something. (I take my hats off to you :))Seriously speaking, maple has indeed changed a lot!!! OMG. I LOVE MY DRAGON SO MUCH NOW!!!!!!!!! Talking about dragon, I got criticised yesterday for coming up with retarded charac names by her bro too. Haha... I think I'm too kind to actually let him say anything and everything about me without rebutting. Oh well, I shall conclude that he is a very stright forward person that says everything and anything that is on his mind.

Anyway, yesterday, I went with Sheryl to eat PIE!!!!! THE PIE WAS THE BEST I'VE EVER EATEN!!!!!!! It's not the macs kind of pie (to be on the same standard as macs pie is really urgh for me :D) It was like really high. Like layer after layer.
Shall I list them out? starting from the base.
Hot crispy pastry with chocolate.
Filled with cream.
Layered with cake.
Cream again. (They use tons of cream~)
cake. :D CHOCOLATE~~~
CREAM!!! WITH NANAS (Go figure.)
C.R.E.A.M.
Then for the toppings, nanas and choco!!!!
(That's for chocolate banana tart!!) Mind you, I'm only talking about a slice which is damn big!
If my phone had connections to this com, I would've posted a pic. (To make you drool!)

Anyway, wondering what Sheryl ate? She had mixed fruit tart. Haha. Let your imagination run wild as to what it looked like. Overall, it was DAMN NICE!!!!!!!

After such a long time I can finally state on thie blog.
I'M GONNA WATCH NARUTO~

It's finally the day tomorrow!!!!! I'm so happy. This major exam is finally ending tomorrow.... I really hope the hardwork that everyone had put in will pay off! Tomorrow will also be the first time I'll be attending a chalet :) kinda excited for a once in a lifetime experience. I doubt I'd have another chalet in my life..

Anyway, tomorrow is gonna be busy, fun-filled and who knows maybe. Tear here and there. Afterall it may be the last time I see my class as a whole before we go our separate ways. Thinking about it now does make me feel kinda sad. But as they go, our lives are filled with many goodbyes but with each goodbye is a new beginning :D I will definitely miss my class. It one of the best two years in IJ! Well, I guess it's not really the end because we'll still be seeing much of each other even if we are off to the different paths life takes us to.

Haha. This ia getting really soapie. Anyway, as you can see, MY CBOX IS FIXED!!!!! A big thank you to Cheryl for helping a hopeless tech person here!!! :D really glad it's not as screwed up as before. Hahahah.

Tomorrow is sure going to be awesome!!!! Gonna play mah Jong!!!!

CAN'T WAIT!!!

Okay, I officially admit that my tech skills sucks to the core.
I screwed up the cbox, thus you can see it's no longer there cause i can't seem to get it to fit in the slot...
Anyway, sorry for the time being the thoughts have to be kept to yourself as I try to get this situation straightened out. :D

Well,it's been a really long time since I posted.
After all, I banned myself from the com cause I was tackling a large hurdle in my life that is about to end soon with only MCQs left!!!!

After yesterday's SS paper, I wasn't really in much mood to study for Physics MCQ. It's MCQ...Who studies for it? Well, maybe me... Anyway.
I've missed my blog soooo much.. I have this feeling that my cbox is screwed so I'll shall deal with it later. Starting my countdown toooooo!!!

6 more days till freedom!!!!!!!!!! It's hard to believe that 4 years of hardwork to conquere this major exam is coming to an end. I'm really hoping that my hardwork would pay off as well as for everyone else out there! I have the urge to create a whole lists of stuff which is plan to do after exams which mainly involve the computer and anime and manga. Hahaha. AFA IS THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why does it have to be this weekend???? If only it was the next then I would be free to go!!!!!!! T.T sobs. Well, i hope they have another one during Dec. Then I would be free to go....

But this year really flew by. Gotta go for piano lesson...
Next time I'm back would probably be next week. :]

Today I had a few mixed feelings. Well, the day wasn't really that great. Firstly, some bloody inconsiderate horrible heartless ass of a person decided to cut off the bananas gearing on my banana tree. Like what the hell. It isn't even ripe neither is it yours!! Anyway, next was my distant cousin. I decided to text him since we finally had a topic to talk about but you know there I a nicer way of saying you dun wanna tall to me other than saying case close. Like what the fuxk man. Do I look like some freaking stranger asking you these stuff??? Freak man.

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.


How I wish I could do this.

Truth be told, I miss you.
Truth be told, I like you.
Truth be told, I love you.
Truth be told, I'm lying.

Finally, a break from prelims!!! At last a time to post on
my blog. Sigh. Overall, this week has been very hectic. It feels as if I've been doing 4 weeks of prelims!! The papers were 'unusually' hard. You can actually hear my sacarsm. Physics was okay so was chem. The killer one would have to be bio. And here I was actually hoping that I could score for bio...

Other than exam-wise I think my life it's pretty much normal. Today is an exception though. It was one of the best lunch outing I'd ever had. Went to YIshun with Des, averil, Sherm and Cheryl. We couldn't decided on where to eat so we spent about 5 mins outside tp station contemplating on what to eat and where. Finally we settled for Seoul garden!!!!! Truthfully speaking, the lunch was awesome!!! :D Each of us had to pay 15.65 but I think it was very worth it considering the amount we ate. Hahaha. I've never eaten so much chicken and egg in my whole entire life. >.< in total we spent about 3 hours on our lunch. In fact we could have gone on but averil had tuition and so we had to rush to the mrt after that. But I think today will be a day that I'll never forget. :)

It really feels as if I took my chem paper a week ago and my bio paper on Monday or something. My sense of time is really screwed up. Haha. It doesn't feel like was cramming my head off yesterday... Tomorrow, there is piano lesson again. I have a feeling that she'll kill me this time because I haven't practiced this whole week. Haha. I'm still surprised that she said I improved on my second piece last week when i hardly touched the piano last week. Maybe this Is a perfect example that too much practice may cause more harm than good...

Okay. It's getting late and so I shall stop here with a joke from my mum. Well, it's more of the stupid thing she said. So we're in the front porch, loading the boot and she says 'If there is no space, put it in the car.'

Something to laugh about to those who get it. :D

This week has been pretty much hectic. There has been so much homework, tests and preparations! Prelims are just a week away!!!! I am seriously started to panick. I'm trying to start and plan out the revision for my humans. I'm really starting to freak out.

For the recent SS test I did really badly. (Well, its expected since I wrote 4 factors instead of 3.) If this is the kind of scores I get for a test then when it comes to the real thing, I'll be around a B4. Which is REALLY BAD~!

Monday is my O's for english and I'm not confident in aceing it. Especially after hearing the picture for the first day..... I'm hoping it went as well as with chinese. Talking about Chinese, yesterday was such a emotion rip off. The results were suppose to be released then but no. Its next week! ARGH!!!!! Freaking hate next week and the next 3 months....

Who knows, this may be my last daqy posting.

Yesterday, I wanted to post, but I guess I had to delay it as the laptop I was using last night was extreamely slow! It took me 45 mins to load the internet front page. 10 mins to go to my blog. Yupp. So I guess you would know how I felt just trying to go to a website. Sigh.

Anyway, enough of the PMO stuff. Yesterday was fun! Had a free shower in school. Hahaha. But it was quite exciting to see the torch as well as the children of the different teachers. >.< Mrs Tan's sons are so adorable! They were carrying the doll version of Merly and Lyo while taking picture with the life size merly and lyo mascots! Haha. So cute! Pity I didn't bring my camera to take oics. But I doubt I would have had the chance to take one.

Its finally the long weekend! But its a bit sad that this will be the only holiday I'll have until O's are over. Sigh. But, I must conquere the pile of hw!!!!!
I can do it!!! xD

Finaaly! The whole week of tests are over!!!
Actually, this is not something I should be happy about since the major ones are not here yet.

Alot has happened this week. I really miss talking to Cheryl cause I haven't gone home with her this whole week. Its kinda sad.... sigh. Yet, I'm excited about tomorrow! Going to Yishun for RAMEN!!!~~ Love that shop :D

I cut my fringe this week too! Took me a while. Haha. I did it while trying to study geog. I'm quite happy about the result. >.< Come to think about it, this week has been eventful. Ranging from tests to competitions, plus tons of laughter too!

I's scary to think that after O's I may never see my classmates again. Especially the scholars. Time sure is passing fast this year.


Making someone love you and trampling over their feelings gives them immense pain. 95% this fails as you lose your heart in the process of this tactic of revenge.

Time sure flies. Its the end of Week 5 already.
We finally got our prelim timetable. Sigh. I feel like I'm living in a dream. Having that piece of paper in front of me felt so surreal.

Anyway, I decided to post after so long as Ms Puja says posting helps to improve our writing skills. xD
Today will be a day that I'll remember for life. Its the day my phone decided to die on me. Oh well, all good things must come to an end I guess. But I LOVE THAT PHONE SO MUCH.

So, I'm using my dad's old phone. Well, its of accepable condition still. I spent like 3 hours trying to edit my ex phone theme to fit this phone. Apparently, the phone themes in my dad's ex phone sucked. So yupp. Managed to download some songs into the phone too. At least I won't have the hear the irritating nokia tune whenever someone calls me.

I have phone that is meant to reject calls only.
How cool is that?

Wanna know some of the things that piss me off?

I can tolerate it if you push or gently shake the chair if I happen to be sitting on your seat.

I understand if you tell me that you want to sit. But when the push comes to the shove, that is when you cross the line of my tolerance.

If you feel that I am dumb and can't understand english that you have to kick the chair i'm sitting on sky high, by all means do it when I'm NOT sitting on it. I do wonder why God gave us a mouth each. It was to speak your thoughts cause like every normal human, I CAN'T READ MINDS.

Seriously, I still wonder why I apologised when she kicked the chair?
Wtf man.

I shall be a nice girl and not curse sheryl ann.

Cause seriously, after she passed me the flu, its been getting worse...
Now I've a damn clogged up nose and a raw throat.
guess what?
I got a cough too.
And now when my nose is block, so is my ear.
OMG. I'M SO PRAYING THIS STUPID SICKNESS GETS CURED BEFORE TING LI!!!!!!!!!!
>:(

OMG~~~~~~~~~

YOU'LL NEVER GUESS IT!
I'M WEARING A YUKATA FOR RACIAL HARMONY DAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

AND I FINALLY GOT MY NARUTO FIGURINES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~

I'M ONE HAPPY GIRL! :D

Well, today was a much better day I guess.

I felt so much better after going for mass yesterday. I think I'll go next week too. After such a long time.

Anyway, something related to the piece I wrote during CE.

I am worn out and tired.
I wonder why does these things happen to me.
I hear my thoughts echoing loudly.
I see your face when you're hurt.
I want all of these problems to end soon.
I pretend to not see these things but it doesn't work.
I feel loved for just a moment.
I touch the face of pretense.
I worry about worthless things.
I cry at how screwed up these days are.
I understand that this is something I can't change.
I say words that are empty.
I dream of a perfect world.
I try to wipe your tears.
I hope the phrase "forgive and forget" works this time.

My life is pretty much messed up right now.

Freak it.

Bitching doesn't even help.
In fact, why bother?
I'm just gonna seal these in an envelope and burn it away.
With my memories.
Ignorance is bliss, right now.

Guess you weren't who I thought you were.

How nostalgic.
I went for a funeral today and all I thought was a year had passed and I'm back here again.
Looking at the flowers, white tent, bus to Mandai.
Sure brings back unhappy memories.

At the Mandai area, the wife fainted. Really scared all of us.
An ambulance came and Thank God she was okay. Her daughter was definitely scared.
I think she's very strong to be able to handle so much plus a 2 year old kid on top of that.

Tomorrow I'm not going out at all. Really sick of going out. Today was out since 10:05. didn't come home till 7. Sianzxz.... Tomorrow I shall complete Amaths and ss. Haha. Haven't touched Naruto for 5 days.

A really meaningful song. :D

It's only 4 months away.

Frankly, I'm scared.

What the hell have I been doing?
Why can't I be sitting there studying?

I wasted my 3 weeks.
1 week left.
With only 3 days for extra studying.
Freak this.

Look's like I have to go back on my word about the pics. Turns out that I brought the wrong hard drive. The photos aren't in there. Oh well. Next time I guess. Hahaha.

Today was an alright day. Didn't think I would see my cath class friend at J8 though. Haha. Oh! I have one thing to complain about!

The freaking popular in J8! Even though its BIG, there is not a single shelf selling SMALL staplers!!!! How ironic. The one they had was like 'thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss" LONG!!!!!!!! How am I gonna bring such a BIG stapler to school? And back here, I found a stapler that was "thisssssssssssss" long. Hahaha. NICE AND SMALL!!!!

I'm addicted to MOGU MOGU!!!



Exactly what I'm drinking now but I didn't take the pic. Haha.
>.< Got it off the net to show what mogu mogu was. Haha.

I just noticed yesterday was my 250th post! Haha. Slow but still. Haha.

My finger is officially half blue. The things that it can't do outweights but it can do. Let me name a few.

CAN'T DO:
1. Write properly
2. Type properly
3. Hold chopsticks properly
4. Play the piano
5. Hurts to apply pressure
6. Can't let anything hit it
7. Can't wash my hair with it
8. Can't carry heavy things with it

can do:
Admire how the blue moves up my nail.

Yupp. And the things it can do is rather pathetic.

Anyway, tomorrow I shall post my long awaited photos from NZ.
:D

Last night I had a really meaningful yet funny dream.

I still couldn't believe I dreamt it but I think God was really trying to tell me something this time.

And Here it goes. I dreamt I was waiting for a confession. (Hard to believe right?) And the thing was I wasn't in a church, in fact, I was in a garden under some hut. If I remember correctly, it was slightly worn out and there were about 3 people, including me, there. First was a Sister and a Father. I seriously had no idea what I was doing there. >.<

Anyway, somehow I couldn't see Father and so it was just Sister and me. Suddenly, I had an urge to confess. I really had no idea why. Hahaha. Anyway, so you know what I did? Even though deep down in me I was telling myself this is wrong I shouldn't be doing it but yet I did it!

I went to Sister and said "Forgive me Father for I have sinned"
And I myself was STUNNED!!!!!!! I had no idea why I did it. And at that time, all I could think of was: How long has it been since my last confession?

Anyway, on with the dream, Sister interrupted me by saying "Father ----- is here." Somehow I can't remember his name now... And so I started my confession but I didn't really get to the point of telling my sins. The sin that kept going round my head was "I don't go to church regularly." That actually made me feel wrecked in a way.

I really think this was God's way of telling me I should be on my own and make my life right, huh? Well, I will try my best and make everything right in my life. :D

Anyway, other than that dream, I slammed my own finger with a toilet door. How epic is that? Now my finger is like blue. Hahaha. And it's always my middle finger that gets hurt. Oh well. May be its another meaning too. HAHAHA.

Just re-downloaded maple again. I try and see if I can install it. HAHA.

I tell you, Naruto pisses me off.
The freaking show has irritated the heck out of me!
Sasuke has a damn inane attitude right now... Why in the world does the artist have to create such a horrible story line....
I mean its okay, but... >.< words can't express what I feel....
Anyway, I think Gaara is damn cool now. Hahaha. >.<
I'm so fickle minded.
For a while too the video refused to continue and the website crashed.
So amazing.

Today was an ultra busy day for me. Haha.
Well, in the morning I went for piano... Wasn't really that great. Oh well, my spped was horrible nd so were my scales. Hahaha. I think that's what you get for not practising. Haha.

After that, had lunch at the Japanese Shop near my house. Oh! And I bump into this awesome phrase!

IKA PON PON~~~~

xD If you say it in the way I do It's an EXTREMELY CUTE name!!! Hahaha. Anyway, at aropund 3:30 left for Suntec and watched Karate Kid with my family! AWESOME AND TOUCHING SHOW!!!!!!!!

(I saw a few hot guys in the movie too... Hahaha)
But I can't believe they had a kissing scene in it too... I mean the guy was only 12... IS actually... Well, too me its a tad bit too young, don't you think so?

Didn't really manage to do much homework either... Besides geog. Tomorrow is going to be another cramming day again. But I'll be going to view the Pixar exhibition tomorrow.... Argh. My weekend is officially going down the drain.

That's about it I guess. Back to Naruto~ (:

NEW BLOGSKIN~~

HEH.

I finally started a war with my homework!
BWHAHAHA. (oKAY, I think I'm going nuts ._. )

Anyway, managed to complete some! So proud! >.<
With many breaks in between. Haha. Up next is my daily dose of geog. Sheesh. That is worse than swallowing fever pills.

Recently I started watching bleach again. But Naruto won my heart still. >.<
Anyway, the latest bleach OP is nice. Haha. Waiting for the full version to come out. ~.~ today there is FMA!!!! And I'm sad that it is ending soon. The extra long journey is coming to an end... I'll miss my friday dose of it...

Sigh. I've been feeling sad almost everyday... Naruto.... Another episode, another guy died and Sasukke joined the bad side!!!! Sniff Sniff. All the guys I like are slowly dying one by one!!!!

I miss Marianne.... my msn partner.... Hahaha. A bit random. Sigh. There goes my UNO for the next 3 days. Hahaha.

Going to the new chinese restaurant at TP tonight. xD

AHHHHHH!!!!!!
I BOUGHT THE LORD OF THE RINGS PIANO SCORE!!!!!!
I'M SO GOING TO MASTER CONCERNING HOBBITS BY THE END OF THIS HOLS!!!!!

Even though this week is just the start of the hols its just like another week of school. I would rather call it Term 2 Week 11.

Today, I've no idea why I was pissed at someone. And this may be my first time speaking about it but I'm really sick and tired of being in the middle. Everytime its always will this side be angry will the other side be angry. I feel damn tired of worrying about both sides. Sometimes I really wish for all these to end. Today was the perfect example again.

I think I'm really at my wits end this time. Just thinking about it pisses me off too. Why can't everyone just happily get along?

sigh.

It's been a long time since i posted a reflective post.

Anyway, I feel like posting that kind of post today. I just finish reading for one more day and I thought that book was really meaningful.

It also happen that today Sheryl was telling me about ghosts and stuff like that and one question hit me. What if the ghost was your relative? How would you act?

I pondered for awhile. If it was my relative and its someone I'm really close to like my grandmother for example. I wouldn't mind it at all. In fact, I would love to see her again. I mean just picturing her walking with me. The thought of being granted a chance to meet her again is priceless. I can actually tell her what I'm facing right now, complain to her like how I did when she was still her. Especially about my mum. Haha. But my first question will be "How are you over there?"

And that made me think about death... The question that will never be answered when I'm alive is "What's heaven like?" It would be really awesome if my whole family will be there and we can have dinner as a whole family again. That is my wish when I grow up cause there will come a time where my grandparents will leave and my parents will go. So after a long parting, won't it be nice to go back and be able to see everyone again? That will be quite cool.

After reading the book, I feel like starting a section on my blog where I write down the times my dad stood up for me. Haha. Everytime its always mother or mum doing this and that but never the dad. Mums are the housewives; they bind closer with their children while dads are the breadwinners. I kinda agree with that even though my mum isn't the housewife. Haha. Well, its either your dad knows you the best or its your mum. One may know you better than the other but isn't it the best to know that both loves you as much?

"You can either become a mummy's boy or a daddy's boy. Which do you choose?"

The truth is, I choose none. As I favour both. :D

Okay, my post in a very very long while. :D

I just finished reading my manga a bit confusing towards the end where the guy suddenly died and it ended. Seriously, I was shocked and stumped. Haha. Well, tomorrow is officially the last day of school. :D A bit sad that sem one has ended. Thinking about grad makes me feel really sad somehow. I really do not wish to part with my awesome class...

Thinking about all the wonderful friends I've made and the memories with my class. I can say that the past two years are the best of my Secondary life. Up next is JC. I really wonder if my class will be as great as this one. >.<

But, hey! O's comes first right? I really can't wait for this thurs. DIM SUM!!!!! :D Gonna have an awesome celebration for end of school before cramming like crap in the june hols. Like what they say.

"What's a holiday without holiday homework?"

Well, I'm gonna enjoy my last week of school and end it with a big bang!

IT'S FINAAAALLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yupp!!!! I am super duper ultra uber happy!!!!!!!
Finally a BIG load off my chest. (For now at least..)
I really miss my blog so so so so so so much~~ >.<

Today was damn fun! But its a pity half the people I invited couldn't make it. I'm really sad about that. Anyway, that aside, next time I'm determined to make sure they are all able to make it! >.< Today made a really big impact on my life. Haha. I actually sat for my 2nd and 3rd O level paper. Even though they can be considered as minor papers, but it's quite an achievement, don't you think so? Well, the big one is in 3 weeks time! Sigh.

About today's outing. I couldn't believe it but I saw Clara and Regina!!!!! I tried waving but they didn't see.... Oh well, I guess we blended in too well then. Hahaha. Anyway, there were only 5 of us, Nat Tong, sheryl, desiree, shermain and me.Haha. Went to New York New York for lunch!Had a reminiscence of primary school. Hahaha. Tehn went to Vivo which i thought was damn epic that we did window shopping and lookng at PageOne before settling in Starbucks. Haha. You can never guess what we did in Sarbucks... Played games on Des's Iphone!!!! Seriously, she has some of the coolest games!! xD

Tomorrow is going to be an AWESOME DAY!!! I don't even need to experience it to think it'll be, I KNOW IT!!!! Hahaha. As most of you guys know, my com crashed but I'm surprised my laggy laptop is not lagging!!! xD

Finally, I can say this, I'M GONNA WATCH NARUTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SASUKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stomach in deep pain right now....

Must be the stupid tekka chicken that i ate after the ice cream...

Ugh.... Feeling really horrible...
I think the chicken was spoilt...
How smart of me. xD There goes my studying for today...

Hahaha. My first post in April!!! And it's already the end of april.

Anyway, better to say this first.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May your special day be filled with joy and happiness!!!!
JIA YOU FOR MID YEARS~!

And....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIA!!!!!!!!!
good luck for mid years my dear friend!!!!
Study hard!!!!!
JIA YOU~!


Okay. This will probably be the last time I will post.
A bit sad though. Reason being my desktop is busted!
Really hope it'll be fixed then I can play GE during the june hols or at least after mid years...

Well, not looking forward to this thurs...
Competition was bad too...
Sigh...
Okay, on a last note. To those who read this.
JIA YOU FOR MID YEARS PEEPS!!!!!! DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!

I just survived the first week of Term Two.
Whew, it actually passed by quite fast. This whole week had many ups and downs. I failed chinese test, changed seats and banned myself from watching Naruto. But I think I may change that rule a bit. Haha. A little tweak won't harm right? I'm gonna watch some tonight. Obviously the rest of tomorrow will be dedicated to studying! Must pass the next e maths test with flying colours as well as pass CHINESE!!!!!!

I'm worried about some subs for midyears. Apparently, this year I've a list of worries. I'm scared for the physics, chinese, english and geog paper. Sigh. You could say I'm scared of everything. And I'm feeling a bit freak out cause I just killed an insect that is damn big.... >.< Really. It was huge!

Anyway, today was a rather awesome day, besides the fact that we had quite a lot of weekend hw. Training was quite good. I'm so happy the coach said I improved! >.< Happy happy! There is piano tmr aND I've yet to practice. Sigh. Screwed.

Okay, I shall watch Naruto now! >.< While I'm helping my bro download Audition. Can you believe it? He's going to play audition! -.-" I insisted on GE but he refused to accept. Maybe next year I'll convince him to play by playing it in front of him. Hahaha.

Aiming to make shunkan sentimental my top played song.

Ending on a last note. Sasuske is damn cool!!!!

The last day of the hols!!! I'm damn sad. Term two starts tmr and spa is coming up as well as mid year and interschools! I guess April won't be something to look forward too.

Having dinner now. Will post soon. :)

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DO A MATHS!!!!

First day of the march holidays. :D Time really passes very fast.
It has already been one year eh? Sure did feel like a very short time. Well, we celebrated your first death anniversary yesterday. And that brought me to read my last year's posts. Haha.

Somehow I feel I was very emo last year. Haha. Today was the usual. I finally managed to stusy 5 hours straight. After which I watxhed Naruto!!! >.< Finally reached the third exam. I had to force myself to stop. Getting really tired. And that was when I decided to post! My sis got sick AGAIN. Down with cough and sore throat. I'm staying 5 feet away from her this time. Now is a really really bad time to fall sick! I have no wish to visit the doctor again. In fact it's my aim to not fall sick the whole of this year. Reaaalllyyy important!

Tomorrow I'll have to wake up at 6:30 cause I got to be in school by 8. I'm planning 45 mins to get there. That is why after this post I'm turning in. Even though I didn't manage to finish what I plan to finish today. I really know how tiring it is to study for 5 hours plus let alone 8. Yupp. I was actually planning to study for 8 hours. That's taking more than I can hold. Hahaha.

Oh. Over the weekend my freaking Ipod hanged... Thank goodness it was back to normal after 2 hours. (When the battery finally died-ed.)

I started on physics hw today. Have no idea how to do the first question. Hit my motivation to continue on. And while msging, I couldn't spell columbarium!!!!! -.-"

I just planted a banana tree!!!!!! How cool is that?!? I'm posting with my dad's Iphone!!!
Well, today I really hope I'll be able to watch naruto again! All I gotta do is finish my bio and memorize chem!!!!!
Praying hard that it'll rain today!!!!!!

OMG!

I'M ADDICTED TO NARUTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O.O

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

THERE'S SAILING TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


O.O

A Sunday where I am actually free to post~~~

I finally succeeded in finding the piano score sheet for Time for miracles. Not really a good one though. Maybe I should photocopy the one from sweeperella. HAHA. Yesterday's flagday was damn awesome. Went all the way to Bedok. Hahaha. Julia is like chao pro at asking people for donations. Sheryl and I were like the not so kiasu type. But she still beat me though. I think I was damn sway yesterday. Rosh managed to get 50 bucks!!!!! Just cause the guy said she had a pretty smile... I had the lightest can of all and then I was the only one who got rejected 5 times in a row. All the sadist in the group started laughing at me. So bad right? I had trouble selling off my last sticker. everyone who donated refused to take my last sticker!!! Sheryl had already finished selling hers and some of mine. Finally like 10 mins later of asking. I managed to sell off my last one. whew.

Today was a rather slack day as you can tell. I'm free to POST!!!! Well, typing a letter later for my secret pal. Since she insists on having one. Pity I have no stickers this time. Hahaha. Well, at least its TYPED! I really can't be bothered to do chem and physics. Maybe I'll do it later. Just maybe. Haha. So fast tomorrow I'm back in school again. Doing lessons. Sigh.


Maybe next week will be an AWESOME week? I hope...
Happy LAST DAY OF CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

Wow. It's been a long time since I last posted... almost 2 weeks!!!!

Well, there have been many ups and downs this month. Some which I have no wish to relive them again. You could say I met into some unexpected changes. Oh well. This week have been tiring. Physically and mentally.

Not only did I have tons of test, I think I screwed up one of them. I conclude. Okay, not just me, Cheryl, Roshini and I conclude that Mrs Tang is officially PMSing. She has been so happy now a days. Kinda freaky.

Finally... a Friday where I am not staying back for anything! I am so happy. (Even though I pon pt.) Hahaha. Well, I don't say, no one knows. Anyway it's raining what can they do?


Excited about tmr~ My dad's big birthday bash and doing CIP with Sheryl and Rosh!!!!

6th week of school!!!!

I think last week has been very eventful. I think I've faced almost any kind of emotion this past week. I cried, laughed, shouted, complained. Yeah. This week had SELF-AWARENESS CAMP! IT WAS AWESOME!!! One of the best camp I ever attended. Knew some classmates better. Scholars definitely. I love my secret pal even more now. As in the one I'm suppose to write to. And missing her right now. Can't wait for tomorrow where I can finally talk to her!!! >.<

Love my class even more now especially those who were with me most of the time throughout the camp!!!!

Today I've been packed the whole day. Didn't have time to start on hw till like 6 in the afternoon and didn't finish till 8. Well, not done yet... Left with physics 2 more small chpt and SS SBQ. This morning I can't believe I took the initiative to attend mass. Saw a few people from my ex cath classmates. Mixed feelings though. A bit awkward a bit happy. Sigh, haven't seen them for 2 months. After mass rushed home to have lunch with a few relatives who came over to see my grandmother. Less than 45 mins later, on the road again to united Square to celebrate Lum's sis's birthday. Haha. Had a very fun time there, chatted with lum and catch up on what I've missed with her. Planning to have another sleepover with her again. Haha. Just the two of us. The last time I did one with her was like last last year. So long ago. Hmm... should ask Clare and Lynette too. Hahaha.

Anyway, had the party at Ben's and Jerry's!!!! ICE CREAM!!!!!!!! MILKSHAKE!!!!!!! AWESOME-NESS!!!!!!!! Sigh. After that took a train to Marymount and took the shortcut home!!!! My sis wanted to drop by Cheryl's house. >.< But of course we didn't. A bit the rude. Haha. I miss almost everyone after the camp. But nevermind. I'll see them tmr. Maybr I should give everyone a big hug!

<3 secret pal!!!!!

This whole week has been very hectic. Finally the weekend is here and I can take a breather. Sigh.

Well, there was a chemistry test and an english test. Not to mention another suprise test. I hardly have time to study extra. Not only that, today piano was horrible. The teacher could so tell I didn't practice. This wed there is going to be piano again. Cause I'll be missing next sat's one cause of SA camp!! Can't wait!!! Very excited about it!!!!

Still have tons of hw to complete. I plan to finish Geog and English tonight then tmr I just finish up SS and cram BIOLOGY!!!! Have a freaking SPA on Monday. Very nervous. Then there is also CCA this tue. So not looking forward to see the coach.


I pray he doesn't scold me this time.
* Goong 119 just came out~ >.< *

I guess i should really change my blogskin sometime soon. Haha. Well, I guess I have to wait for a day where I am very free with nothing better to do...

Anyway, it's a bit rare for me to be posting on a Sunday and at 8:50 too. Haha. Well, the reason is cause my mum is out for dinner so we had an early, VERY EARLY dinner!!! :D We meaning my dad, sis and I. Haha. I just finish printing the latest timetable. Hate it. A LOT!!!!

I didn't come here to post about my day today but about a manga I found. >.<

Hot guy!!!! HAHAHA. Its called dance in the Vampire Bund and as you know first thing I look at when finding a manga is how cool the guy looks. Hahaha. This is AWESOMENESS I say!!!


:D

I am going to be a good catholic and listen to Father mike. Haha. I'm going to answer the question how do I feel now? (Was that the exact question? I can't remember.) Anyway, the answer is TIRED!!!! Obviously this is just a draft, I'm not going to type a personal prayer on my blog for the whole world to see. :D

Today was the first time in 2010 that I went for SAILING!!!!! There were a few shocking changes.

No. 1 tps now knows who I am and my name and my class. How great is that? Not only do I see her for the whole of today, I see her on monday too.. when there is PE. How awesome is that? SIGH.

Next, omg. Jiao Lian changed a lot!!!! As in personality wise. Instead of swearing ka ma de or ben dan, he actually says JIA YOU!!! OMG. HOW FREAKY IS THAT?!?

Lastly, he stopped scolding us and actually let us out at sea till quite late!!!! What I can't believe is that he said we improved!!!! personally, I felt I didn't improved. I forgot all my skills. O.O After training my legs bacame all jelly. very wobbly. Took me like 5 mins to steady myself after getting off the boat. Now my knees are covered with bruises and scratches. I feel like covering both knees with tons of plaster. Haha.

I'm going post on one more thing and it'll end. Cause I still need to practice piano but I wonder how when I'm zombie-fied.... tomorrow, piano teacher is going to kill me...

I SAW MRS TUTTI IN THE TRAIN!!!! She got on at NOVENA!!!!!

I'm feeling very frustrated right now. Seriously, I don't even know why!

I guess you could say that everything went downhill after dinner. Well, my mum became very bossy. Like to the max. I was helping my dad find something and she just shouted "Stephanie!!! Where are you!!!! I still have work to do after this!! Why you so slow!!!!" I was like wth. You talk so much why don't you do it yourself?? (And now thinking about this is making me even more pissed.)

Next, was at grandparent's place already. Before she went she ordered rather than asked to do her a favour and that brings me to the next thing. When people ask you "Can you help me do a favour?" before you can answer they actually ramble on about what needs to be done to you? Yeah and that's what happened with my mum. Before I could say yes or no she just told me what to do. I mean if you expect me to do, why give me a choice in the first place? What's the use of asking such a redundant question? You might as well save your breathe and tell me to the point and hurry home to finish whatever work you have.

Before we left, another incident happened. From the mood I'm in, you can tell its not a good one. Well, my bro left his face soap in the bathroom and called my mum to help him take and that was when we were in the car already. My mum got pissed and so she ordered me to take it. The convo was as such.

M: Stupid boy! Girl, go to the pond there and ask them to take for you since the house key is in here with the car key... (That's where she rambles on and where I lose my temper.)

S: "YOU DIDN'T TELL ME TAKE WHAT!!!"

Yupp. I did shout. Seriously, I get it that he's wrong and you want to hurry up. But, you keep nagging and blaming other people don't you think you are at fault too? Plus while you're blaming people you are freaking wasting your own time. Tsk.

I guess this incident plus my lack of sleep plus the medication plus the drowsiness is making me pissed off with almost everything.

My dad just got an I-phone. Damn cool!
Sad thing is he doesn't have any games in there but there is WI FI!!!! Hahaha. I sound like Rosh... There's a possibility of surfing the net with his phone!!! Cool!!!! Now as I think about it, my family is like going through some technical update. Its like almost everyone is getting the latest stuff. Haha.

I finally get my cravings fulfilled!!! I'm having kimchi for lunch and beef for dinner!!!! I'm starving right now. Haha.

I'm so glad tomorrow is a holiday. Still unsure how tomorrow is going to turn out but I think all holidays will turn out AWESOME!!! Haha. This tue will be starting sailing training again. Its going to be twice a week now cause jiao lian won't be here for the whole of feb. Haha. Kinda happy about that. xD Anyway, won't be attending this tue's one cause I have an MC and I have the mass rehearsal to attend which over runs CCA. Haha. So TPS can't do anything about it. I'm going her and MC so that she has no way of criticising my mum for having horrible letter writing skills.

Another thing to blog about is on friday we were given a survey to do and they asked me questions like do I tell my parents everything/ do I trust my parents etc. And I was thinking actually, I tell them too much. Hahaha. I mean its okay if they just listen but I hate it when my mum finds something in what I have just told her and nag to me about it. Like when I told her my sailing coach was going to be away she was like why is it this or why then you never... yeah. and the thing goes on...

tsk. Annoying.

I am sick again. How awesome is that?

Well, I think it must be the stress. haha. Lucky I do not have to skip school if not that would really suck. Yesterday, I felt super crappy. Had a throbbing headache... Last night had a broken sleep too. I went to sleep at 8:30 and woke up at 9:45 to feel very hot, so I got up to switch on the fan. Haha. Then woke up at 2:45. Felt my throat was very dry so i went down to drink a cup of water and went back to sleep. woke up at 6:30 and couldn't go back to sleep. So I drank milo and watched tv!!! Hahaha. After that had breakfast and went to sleep again at 9:45 am. This time I slept till 11:45. Haha. Had to take med.

I seriously feel like a pig sleeping most of the time. Feel very very sian. Can't do much when I'm sick...

Guess what? My grandfather got mio tv installed in his home yesterday!!! there is a korean channel!!!!!!! But other than that,there is nothing much. I still prefer starhub.

Today was the start of the second week of school. Well, in short the worst day of my life. I am not in the mood to post a supeer long post or complaint. Instead, it'll be short and sweet! My fav.

1. Suprise SS test
Not only was it a surprise, it was on freaking deterance. (Fail.)

2. Chem test is pushed forward.

3. Physics SPA was freaking rubbish.
My graph was rubbish. My answers were rubbish and to summarise it, i wrote rubbish. If she didn't return the paper for us to redo, I would have failed it hands down eyes closed. That's not the best part yet. Its the freaking last pract before our real spa. And its not even related!!!

4. English I forgot to but the jotter book. Luckily she was nice. If not I would really loathe today.

5. Got to be the presenter for my group.

Finally, after that, SCHOOL ENDED!!! It felt like i died 3 times and came back to life again. Sigh. Tomorrow is CJC open house. I would love to go but there's CCA. Sigh...

Currently, I'm sneak posting. Haha. Well, I'm supposed to be doing hw and studying for SS but I'm breaking that by using my bro's laptop. You could say I was tempted to post. Cause next week sure is going to be hectic. Firstly, fri is when sailing starts. Thinking of that, I got to find my sailing stuff. Probably has cobwebs and insects...

And there are the tests... really not in the mood to study. Yesterday was awesome. haha. For the first time in my life, I did the colour thingy, the one where kinergarden kids paint with the bottles of paint provided and they sit on tiny stools. Yeah, you get my point. The first one we did (Sera, Yi Jing, Lummie and Emelyn) it was a complete FAIL!!!

Crap. Mom's home.

Random note. I think the name stephania will grow on me.

I just discovered something. When I am stressed, I tend to become depressed and moody. Sigh. Well, the thing that is bugging me right now is my cca which is starting next fri.

Apparently, I will be participating in this year's interschool. Not only that, its like 2 freaking days after my birthday. How sucky is that? And so I'll be having intense training sessions before that. Which will be tue and fri. On tue, by the time I reach home is going to be 8 plus. How am I going to study let alone revise for tests?

Okay, I'm being insensitive cause sheryl has it much worse. But I need to destress and besides running this is my only other way of de-stressing. Next thing is I noticed I've been saying mean things without knowing this few days. That's the second thing bugging me. I'M SORRY! especially to my best buds. SORRY!!!

Well, that brings me to the third thing. Recently, cheryl's been having some problems. So as a friend, I tried to help her today. Well, I guess I just made matters worse. I was unthoughtful and uncaring. I'm sorry!

Today was the first day of school. One word to describe it all.

OVERWHELMING.

Seriously, who starts lessons and homework on the first day??? I was excited about school at first. Could finally see my friends again!!! Besides that, when I heard lessons were going to continue my mood just plummeted.

Morning was okay. Chose new seats!!! I love my new seat!!! In between cheryl and sheryl! But tomorrow its going to change. cause sheryl can't see the board due to elsa. Haha. At least they're still nearby. :D

Well, as lessons started, time flew. And it only made me more aware of O levels. Sigh. There is like a freaking chem test next week. And this year my birthday is going to be horrid. There is a bloody SPA on my birthday!! Sigh.

Really stressful. Now I finally understood what my bro meant when he said Sec 4 he had no life. I totally agree with him now. Hahaha.

Other then that, today was actually AWESOME. Hahaha. I manage to find my sassy girl Chun hyang the OST score sheet! ^~^ Gonna print it and practice it!! Its like my getaway from school work. Haha.

At least tomorrow is an early day!

Shall I eat ice cream tmr? Miss it alot. >.<

Tomorrow, school officially reopens.

Talk about time flying. Come to think of it, I haven't really posted anything about the new year. Heh.

My aims for this year!
1. Start off school being neat and organized!
2. Study hard!!!
3. Official ban from com games and new manga till after O's.

That's what I've come up so far. Haha. I pray I'll follow these. 2009 was a really great year as I look back on it. I manage to fit in with my new class. Met some awesome teachers and the not so nice one. Met AWESOME new friends!!! I can't believe I'm turning 16 this year. Sweet sixteen eh. I feel so old. Haha.

Talk about birthday, I've quite a few birthday presents to wrap. :D I hope Sec 4 won't be too hard. But that's probably wishful thinking. Haha. Well, got a whole new black file and as some who know me, I have new pics of Allen Walker pasted in it!!!! :D


Well, this will be the last post on the last day of my hols. When I post the next time, it'll be about my school life. Be it the good or the bad. Well, I pray it'll be more good than bad. Then again, with the kind of teachers, I may never know...



Last note.To all my friends.
EVERYONE JIA YOU FOR OUR LAST YEAR!!!! IT'LL BE AWESOME!!!!!
Love,
Steph :D

I FREAKING LOST MY EZ LINK CARD!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

T.T