Today was the first time I went to church after the exams. It was really weird as for the first time, the hall was actually empty! With many only coming in after mass started. I couldn't really concentrate on the homily as my sister was making a lot of noise and there was this 4 year old boy staring at us all the time...but some words actually hit me.

The question "Have you ever defended your catholic faith?" ran through my head many times after mass. Truthfully, I've never ever done it before. Friends, family, strangers. Yes, I've defended them. But faith? That was when it hit me that I've never done it before. The next queStion that came to me was why? Why haven't I done I before? Another phrase was that everyone is a thief. We steal heaven; a place for ourselves. We steal others' time... Does that make us different from real thieves? Who steal material stuff while knowing? While we on the other hand steal something that may seem as nothing but in fact is a gift for us, unknowingly.

Well, I went to church in hope that I would sort out my thoughts about certain issues but it didn't... Have you ever felt that someone close to you is slowly drifting away? You want to stop it but you can't. In the end you widen this gap and push that person even further from you? That's how I'm feeling now And I hate it. Why in the world am I getting jealous? I shouldn't be feeling this way but I can't help it. It's not that person's fault but I'm angry at the person. I really have no idea why I'm feeling like this... It feels as if a kin of mine is being taken away and I can't stop it.

Anyway, played maple and this rude bastard just pissed me off. He wanted me to switch chAnnel which I was about to and this smart ass decided to threaten me sayin he'll take out his main. Like I freAking care? What can your main do to my charac? Since when do YOU own the freaking map??? Would it hurt to ask nicely? Will it kill you? That Ass of a guy seriously pissed me off after that. If I hadn't seen whAt he wrote after I switched channels, I would have said all the vulgarities in
the diff languages if I could.

Feeling tired and pissed.