It really has been a very long while since I posted in this blog of mine. :) Really thinking back now, this blog has been with me since 2006? or longer? Hahaha. I think every year before it ends I always say that this started from a group of friends wanting to share a blog, thinking it's the new "facebook" kind of thing. In 2006, there wasn't any facebook, so blogging was like the "in" thing? A few years down the road, the group of friends broke but didn't lose contact, just weren't as close as before, and facebook came up. Heh. Guess I'm old fashioned eh? Never ever got used to facebook and never will. I think good old blogger here will be the closest I get to sharing my personal life on the net. :)

I actually wanted to post 365 things that brought me much joy, happiness and other emotions for 2011 but I never did got round to it. Haha. So I made a resolution of trying to post 1 happy thing per day for 2012! (Not happening, I know myself best.) Anyway, hard to believe that I have just survived  a year in JC! This year has definitely had its ups and downs but it really taught me a lot I guess?

Only recently did I realise that I was clinging so tightly to the present that I did not want to change. Held so tightly to my friends which I did not want to let go and that made me distant to others. Before I knew it, I had this facade of being someone who just smiles and agrees and just close up. I kept searching for that same bonds which I treasured in Secondary school and of course things didn't work out. Surprising how it took me until now to realise that people are different and letting go of the past does make a difference. That is where my weakness is when it comes to new surroundings I guess.

It's nice to be able to meet up with close friends again throughout the year though I did lose some. You know its those that were really easy  to approach, easy to confide in, easy to trust which are able to severe all ties and turn the other way. Its one thing if you want to keep secrets but its another if you lie persistently and proclaim what's really happening on facebook. It sucks to read the truth online than to hear it from you. But you'll never know this cause you will never read this and sometimes I wonder how much of the stuff you shared with me were truths and how much were just false hope to lead me into believing there was a non existent bond between me and you.

I should be kinda happy to have a blog, since not many people use it anymore and only really close friends read this blog of mine. I can happily say that this is the only website where I get to enjoy privacy on the net. :) This has got to be the longest post I have ever posted so far. Haha. In a long while. I don't really know what to type anymore. So I shall end with this.

To those who still read my blog and those whom I know checks my blog,
thank you from the bottom of my heart. :) It's really nice to know that you are reading and check my blog to remind me that I haven't posted or that my blog is dead. Haha. We do meet up regularly but not frequent enough. Haha. Just to let you know,

I miss you a lot and love you even more. :)