It has been a long week. To tell you straight out, I am sad.
In fact, sad doesn't even come close to what I've been feeling since yesterday during Chinese.

You can name me whatever negative feeling that can be found in the dictionary and I can tell you, I'm feeling 100% of everything you have just named. Depressed? Check. Upset? Check. Lonely? Check. Stressed? Check. Agitated? Check. Seriously, this part of my life really sucks to the core. Don't ask me why. I'll tell you if I want to. This is where I feel like its a total repeat of Sec 1 life again.

Now, I'm starting to regret being in s01. Who knows maybe I should have either dropped physics or take 4H2. Maybe the environment would be better? Maybe the people would be nicer? Yeah. Thats the problem. Maybe.

I've never felt like my life has been so screwed up before to the point where I feel like crying every single day I come home. It's taking a toll on me and I don't think I can keep this up much longer. This is really me begging for the first time for God to be there to just help me. Any way possible, by any means. I just want Him to guide me and tell me "Don't worry Steph, everything will be okay."
I just want to hear those words so badly.