It has been a long week. To tell you straight out, I am sad.
In fact, sad doesn't even come close to what I've been feeling since yesterday during Chinese.

You can name me whatever negative feeling that can be found in the dictionary and I can tell you, I'm feeling 100% of everything you have just named. Depressed? Check. Upset? Check. Lonely? Check. Stressed? Check. Agitated? Check. Seriously, this part of my life really sucks to the core. Don't ask me why. I'll tell you if I want to. This is where I feel like its a total repeat of Sec 1 life again.

Now, I'm starting to regret being in s01. Who knows maybe I should have either dropped physics or take 4H2. Maybe the environment would be better? Maybe the people would be nicer? Yeah. Thats the problem. Maybe.

I've never felt like my life has been so screwed up before to the point where I feel like crying every single day I come home. It's taking a toll on me and I don't think I can keep this up much longer. This is really me begging for the first time for God to be there to just help me. Any way possible, by any means. I just want Him to guide me and tell me "Don't worry Steph, everything will be okay."
I just want to hear those words so badly.

I MIA from blogger and fb too much these days. Well, I can't help it since half the time or actually 3/4 of the time I am in school. Sigh. You know ever since school started, I've been sighing a lot and feeling really tired almost everyday! Haha. One reason being I don't really know my class that well so half the time is spent thinking of questions to socialise and stuff. Hahah. I think if Wan Ying wasn't in my class I would be complaining much MUCH more. Haha.

And guess what? Tomorrow is V day~~~~ Dunno if I should be happy or sad... It's Rosh's birthday too and I feel damn bad for not being able to celebrate it yesterday!!! >.< At least I manage to catch them at the end though I wasn't able to talk to des, mari and nat tong...

Anyway, lessons have started too... ARGH!!!! The subs I can't understand.
Chem.
Physics.
Math.
The best thing about it is that they are all H2s. Hahaha. Oh well, I'm going to put in extra extra effort for all of that and my H1s. Talking about H1s, how can i forget? Chinese. Urgh. I don't even want to start on it. Haha. So this sums up my life in JC so far. Pretty suckish.