Been a while hasn't it?

Even though it was only 2 days ago that school started, it still feels like many things happened.

Words are stuck in my throat as I try to describe the past 2 days. It was enriching and fun. Then again, there are times where I can't help but feel lonely, knowing that my friends are all somewhere else. Carrying on their life. I feel like I'm the only one looking back at the past. Telling myself, it used to be like this or last month was the time I really had fun. I've got to admit it. It's tiring. I'm tired, trying to mix in all the time. Thinking of topics to know the rest better. Everytime I think I'm closer to them and is gradually understanding them, the talk about secondary school friends brings me back to reality. They have friends who are even closer to them and are in the same group. So I'll never understand them at the same level as they do.

Thinking about what tomorrow is going to bring, I've decided to give it a shot. The past 2 days I've been making progress. Trying to leave my old self behind and become someone who is stronger and more outgoing. I'm willing to change myself and now's the time. I'm giving it my all.

As it says, no one is here by chance. That I believe.