Been a while hasn't it?

Even though it was only 2 days ago that school started, it still feels like many things happened.

Words are stuck in my throat as I try to describe the past 2 days. It was enriching and fun. Then again, there are times where I can't help but feel lonely, knowing that my friends are all somewhere else. Carrying on their life. I feel like I'm the only one looking back at the past. Telling myself, it used to be like this or last month was the time I really had fun. I've got to admit it. It's tiring. I'm tired, trying to mix in all the time. Thinking of topics to know the rest better. Everytime I think I'm closer to them and is gradually understanding them, the talk about secondary school friends brings me back to reality. They have friends who are even closer to them and are in the same group. So I'll never understand them at the same level as they do.

Thinking about what tomorrow is going to bring, I've decided to give it a shot. The past 2 days I've been making progress. Trying to leave my old self behind and become someone who is stronger and more outgoing. I'm willing to change myself and now's the time. I'm giving it my all.

As it says, no one is here by chance. That I believe.

My mum wanted me to try walking to SA and so I did. :D
I didn't want to go alone so i kinda dragged Cheryl with me. Haha.
Anyway, it was kinda weird cause I was going to a new school tomorrow. I have to get used to taking the Bishan mrt to serangoon and then change to potong pasir. Then I would have to walk all the way to the school. Truthfully, it's kinda ulu if you know what I mean. xD If I have to walk there alone it'll be kinda scary. I won't be surprised if I get kidnapped halfway and get robbed or something. Haha. But the walk was kinda short. My mum then wanted me to go in and ask when I could buy the uniform and all.... Sigh. I mean this is kinda of last min. Then again, I can't really complain right? Haha.

After that, went to Dover to try a bus route out back home. Well, let's say it was just long. Yup. Long. Then in front of us there were like 2 seats that had water leaking on. Haha. It was kinda funny when you see people sitting down on those seats and only 5 mins later to have water gushing (okay, not really gushing but dripping in many drops down on them.) I felt really bad for laughing. Okay, in fact I'm being pure mean here. Hahaha. So I shall apologise. :)

Just now, had to drop by shop and save to buy lettuce. Sigh, I really should consider having a third name. Haha, if my mum does ever find out. I am screwed for life. I can't even get to experince JC life if she finds out today. I probably have to spend it in hospital. Hahaha.

Today was kinda good in a way too that I managed to post out 5 letters. Saying the things I've been wanting to say in a long time. Trying to mend some stuff with others.

Well, I think one thing that really got to me was the posting on fb. I think this is one of the reasons why I hate going on fb. Whenever you post on someone's wall, it'll be emailed to you and yeah I get it that it can be irritating and all. But I think shut up does have its own way of hurting you somehow. Next time I want to converse with someone. I'm sticking to MSN.

Yesterday was rather sentimental. Thinking back to primary school, the joys and the sadness. Well, 4 years later, I can't remember much of my 6 years there. Probably the me being bullied and the me being scared on the first day are probably those that would stay there in my mind.

Then came secondary school. I think I've never stated it before on this site. So I shall do it now. I hated my Sec 1 life. Yup. It was probably one of the worst experiences in my life. As I look back on it now, I really was being pushed over that time. Thankfully, Sec 2 I made new friends and things became much enjoyable and bearable. After that, came the best 2 years of my life in IJ. :D Sure there were some bad experiences but overall, I had fun. I am really grateful that I made it into this class of mine. Met new people and learnt to change for the better.

And here I am now. One day left to catch up on the people I will miss. One day more before I am once thrown into a new environment and left to fit in. Though I know it won't be an easy ride fitting in to a new class to new people, I would try my best still. After experiencing a year or so of being in a new class with new people, I think I should be able to pull through. Afterall, I still have you guys right?

(This is getting rather sad. So I shall say my piece.)

To my closest bunch of friends; Averil, Cheryl, Desiree, Florence, Marianne, Roshini, Sheryl Ann, Natalie Tong and Shermain.

Thank you for being there for me. For some, thank you for being the backyard people! It was one of the best times that I actually had! To be able to bond as a row. That was a first for me. :D To all, thank you for sitting with me during recess and just talking nonsense. :) It was definitely one of the best times in my life. To my table partner, thank you for helping me through my studies. Especially explaining physics to me! I think since I'm taking H2 physics, I'll probably call you like once a week to ask for your help. xD Thank you to the 4 of you who came on every night to have an msn conference. :D And florence? Thanks for helping me make up my mind. :D Now last part to all of you. Thank you for the great outings we had. It was 120% of pure fun and laughter. Thanks for supporting me during the O's. :D Lastly, I hope you have fun in your different JC life, if times get hard just know I'll be there. I wish you guys all the best. Good luck for your A's next!!!!! Don't forget me, kay? I miss you all and love you guys very very much. >.< Secondary 3 and 4 life would not be fun if not for you guys. :D

At last, I'm at the last stage of the spring cleaning process! *Heaves a sigh of relief.* I think I lost at least 2kg of water through sweat doing all of the household chores. >.<

Wanna hear what I did? I learnt how to use the ancient vaccum cleaner present in the house today. It's the type where you have to plug in the switch and attach the head manually. Yup. As I said. Ancient... Anyway, on the first time, I freaked out. I went upstairs trying to fit the various parts in. Turns out i put the parts in the wrong order. Haha. So the whole thing could not fit into the system itself. Haha. In the end, I had to call my dad for help and eventually, he helped me get it right. >.< So I started vaccuming downstairs. Who knew I could actually perspire so much just vaccuming! Like my dad said "I have never sweat so much like you while vaccuming." Haha.

For the first few times I would flip evertime something went wrong. For example, the head of the vaccum cleaner falling off and when the machine makes funny noises. Haha. Guess I have a weak point in doing things like this. Haha. After that, took a break and I started watching a new korean drama; Yu-hee the witch. Its about this woman who has an awesome career and all but apparently she sucks at dating. Haha. So then, this guy comes in and somehow became her housekeeper as well as her love consultant. Yup yup. :D That's the storyline. So currently I'm 1/4 through. Haha. Trying to see if I can finish it before school starts.

Anyway, helped my sis with her eng homework too. Can you believe it? She's starting to learn about flashbacks for compo! Sure brings back memories when I first wrote a compo using flashbacks! It's one of my favourite way for starting a compo. Feeling a bit sad that I'll never again write a narrative essay for the rest of my life. Sigh, moving on to argumentative already. I am so not ready for all of the new subjects...

Well, feeling really tired now. I really hope my mum will lack me slack off for the rest of the day. Which is not much...

Oh for those who noticed, I deleted 2 of my posts because I felt guilty about bitching. And I was being unfair and one-sided. So I felt it had no right to be left there and so I erased them. :D

Right, got to wash my sis's school shoes now. Sigh, I think I should really consider changing my name to maria.

Now I had the time of my life.
oh, I've never felt like this before.
As I swear its the truth.
and I owe it all to you.

These words do ring through as this day passed by.
My brother finally had an afternoon off which was not filled with any plans.
This day was really spent bonding with him and my dear little sis. :D
I really hope that we can do it again.
After lunch, we decided to drop by thomson plaza to ask KFC if they could hold my sis's birthday party there. After that, drop by the ATM for my bro to deposit money. Then this lady came and asked us "wo zhe li you xian jing, neng bu neng yong zhe ge ba xian jing fang jin qu?"
Both of us were like "Xian jing?"
(We had no idea what xian jing was)
Then thankfully there was this woman infront of the queue that went Xian Jing shi Cash! I was like oh. Cash. Since when was xian jing cash? I thought it was qian??? Anyway, we somehow managed to get out of this mess with the kind lady in front helping the other one. Now this is one of the examples why I did not get a distinction for my oral.

Shortly after, we went home, waited for my lil sis to finish her chinese tuition before heading to scoopz for ice cream~~ It was hilarious. Because my grandfather has a bit of problem with walking long distances, so we decided to da bao ice cream for him. HAHA. YES. DA BAO!!!!! My brother was so funny. At the traffic light there, he went "I take over from here." I was like okay, then I passed him the small cup of ice cream. Then he CHIONG all the way back. My sis and I could hardly catch up. Halfway through, my sis decided to sprint to catch up. Unfortunately, I was wearing flip flops and me wearing flip flops and running DO NOT go together. So at most I could was brisk walk. Then my sis was shouting back, "Jie Jie, why you so slow??? Run lei!" I was thinking, I wouldn't mind running if I didn't have a high chance of falling head first and have to be admitted to hospital. She dare comment back, do you walk that slowly during NAPFA? I lost my temper here saying: "I run during NAPFA AND I'm going to knock your head when I reach home." And she was so adorable! When I reached home, she bow her head infront of me and went"You can knock now." HAHAHAHA.

For those who are curious, I did knock. My bro was like why so hard? My sis could say Not painful one. HAHAHA. That's what you get for a blockhead I guess. xD

Well, tomorrow and the rest of the week is gonna get busy~
Must prepare myself. :D
For pure fun~

Ever worked your ass off for one whole day?
Well, I experienced what it was like today. Really really tiring.

As you all know, Chinese New Year is round the corner. And with Chinese New Year comes Spring Cleaning...
My mum has a thing about being organised and stuff (you can't see it. The house literally shows uncouth youths living in the house, having a party every night.) I don't mean it seriously. In my family no one falls under the category of uncouth. xD
Anyway, she created a list on a post it about which part of the house to clean and who is assigned to clean what. Basically, its a duty roster.

So today was set aside to clean the kitchen. The kitchen drawers, the sink, the pots, pans and tables and all. Well, it was kinda fun in its own way. Sat down and cleared the stuff. It was killing two birds with one stone. On one hand we get to clean the place up and lessen the load for the following week and on the other, we bond as a family. :D

Let's say I saw many things today that I wish to forget. For example, tiny DEAD spiders under an unused blue chair. At least I did conquere my fear and gushed their corpses down with a hose. My sister was at the dinning room doing her artwork and every now and then I would pop by to help her. So kind right? He he. I love her a lot... She's so cute. Haha. Back to point. After that, she was doing her journal reflections for her school work. Guess who she wrote about? I feel so honoured to have me being the focal point of her short essay. But I can't say I feel that happy with it cause she wrote mainly how clumsy I was and how I CAN ALWAYS TRIP YET NOT FALL! And I do agree with her. I always do that yet I don't fall...

Before we know it, it was already 5:30. I decided to take a break after washing the mats and doors. Yeah, you saw right. DOORS. The doors were so cool! They could be taken out from the sliders. I had my Ipod playing in the kitchen so my sis and I were dancing in the kitchen to the songs. HAHA. It was the freestyle kind and we would improvise on the way. Quite cool eh? I think if I did it somewhere else I would be too embarrassed to start! >.< I learnt something new today. MY SIS CAN DANCE! I think in Secondary school I'm going to try asking her to join dance club. I think she would excel there. :D So proud of her.

Anyway, tomorrow is going to be the start of a week that I'll never forget with tons of gatherings and fun. Especially since next week will officially be the 2nd last week of holiday for me. Well, instead of sobbing around with what little time I have left, I think going out and have a blast would make it more worth it. xD

Found an interesting thing yesterday. I have no idea that this website actually tracks the other websites people visit to get my blog url. Quite cool actually. It's kind of nice to know that I'm not entirely mumbling to myself on this blog and that I do have readers. Thanks. :D

I noticed it's been a long time since I last posted a long post or a post of what I consider as a normal length. So today,I shall try. Let's see... start with what's been happening lately?

To sum it up.
- piano teacher is against me going to SA.
She wants me to go NY or A. o.O I really think she has a bad impression about SA. Well, I shall prove her wrong. :D

- went round cleaning the house like a mad woman today. Finally cleared my ancient cupboard. I can actually see the base!

That's about it? Oh which reminds me. I've yet to put up the pics from sentosa. Which was like a month ago. >.< Sorry peeps. I think you've to wait a tad bit longer. (Or until I find my cam.)

Turns out my post for today isn't that long. But I'm sure I'll have tons on the following days to come. :D

Learnt a new word today. Sappu
Not sure if that's the right spelling.

Anyway, submitted it. Finally.
After days of contemplating, long hours of msn chats (thanks guys!) and talks with parents. I finally decided.
Today. I ended my life in IJ.
I pray I make it through.
When JC starts, I'm off to a new environment, off to a new start.

Today came and flew past.

Happy.
It may not be great but who's complaining?
I tried my best, it's what I got.
I have no wish to go round gloating on fb or even tagging about it on fb.

Sure I do regret for some subjects being worse than others when I expected the other way round.

Happy.
It's what I'm feeling.
Not regret nor sadness.
Content is what I'm feeling.
That's all you have to know about today.
Nothing more,nothing less.

Its finally here.
When its here, i'm numb.
Nothing goes through my head.
The only thing I can do as I nervously enter the hall.
Is to tell myself.

Que Sera Sera.
Whatever will be, will be.

My dear friends.
Don't be nervous.
If you're meant to get it you will.
It may not be great.
But the best thing after that is knowing.
We Tried Our Best. :D

Well, I have no idea how to start this but just face it head on?
Today is definitely on my list of one of the best days in my entire 16 years of my life. :D

We (Cheryl and I) went to Averil's house today! First of all she lives quite far and I promised her last week we would be there by 9. (If we could she would treat us to lunch. xD) So anyway, I woke up at 7:05 and got ready to meet Cheryl at 7:55. One thing I can say to sum up how I felt at 7:05 this morning was: dead tired. Really wonder how I'm going to adjust when I start JC life. Well, Averil, I hand it to you for being able to drop by my place at 9:30 before O's. Really remarkable.

Anyway, when we reached there we seriously spent the whole day playing games. Like board games and stuff. Never did we once touch the com or television! I feel so accomplished!!!! I mean usually my idea of friends coming over would be hogging the tv and com so today was definitely a BIG change and an AWESOME one too I might add. The first game was UNO stacko. Well, as most of you know I was unsatisfied with how that game ended the last time and so I wanted to have my fair share of winning too!

So out came the blocks and out came my bad luck. If I were to have a say in this (which I do,) I totally blame my losing streak on my sitting place! HAHAHA. I mean COME ON! WHO THE HELL CAN LOSE 4 GAMES IN A ROW? IN A FREAKING ROW????? Ans: Stephanie. Sigh. I actually admitted it!!! Well somehow at the end we concluded it was cause Cheryl was there. xD But I'm not that mean... It's entirely the feng shui's fault! it wasn't good there! (Who am I kidding?) Sigh. Yeah okay. Moral of story? Steph CAN'T play UNO stacko.

After being fedup with the losing streak, I decided to swap place with Averil, :D So kind right? She actually swapped places with me. Anyway, we played monopoly DEAL! Best game! Hahaha. Tempted to buy it one day. Well, finally a monopoly game which I didn't lose, be heavily debted or downright poor. :D One reason would be it's actually impossible with the cards version but who cares? I didn't go bankrupt for once! Thank Goodness the losing streak stopped at UNO.

After that, we played cludo!!! That game really brings back memories. It is really a very interesting game. Requires brain cells!!! >.< By the way, its idiot proof. So don't need that many. Haven't had so much fun in a long time.

Next up, hah. Something I'm gonna remember in my entire life. We played pictionary! First time in my life I actually played that game. It was alright, just that I conclude I can't draw dustbins, diapers and french toast. I got to hand it to averil. Her drawings were actually guessable(if there was such a word) especially her lamp. :D I give her a star for her lamp. :) It was nicely drawn, Haha. Mine were just hopeless. Well, Cheryl's ones were... yeah. Not that bad. But some were undistinguishable. Like gold was portrayed as goldilocks which was portrayed at 3 bowls, bed and a stickman in pants with a x3 next to it? It was hilarious. Haha. But I have to compliment her for her effort. :D GOOD JOB BOTH OF YOU!

Wanna hear what stupid things I said?
Me: *drawing french toast. Got the toast stuck at french.*
(times up.)
Me: I wanted to draw the eiffle tower! But it's in Paris!
Cheryl and Averil: Which is in FRANCE!

Talk about a dumb blonde moment.

Back to the story. We played taboo next. (After lunch, Hehe. We do eat. BEST BEE HOON EVER!!! THE CHILLI WAS JUST AWESOME! two thumbs up to Averil's mum. :D)

It was interesting, enjoyable, hilarious and a sign that I need to improve my vocab. Some unpredictable blunders and discription.
I shall use short form here.

(Robot [word wanted])
C:Japan makes a lot of this.
I was thinking about sushi.
C: There was a movie starting I...
A: LOVE YOU!
I was laughing like crap here.
C:No! Will smith acted in it.
S:I am legend!!!
c:No!!! star wars...
A and S: o.O
C:I...I..
A: ROBOT!!!!!

(Curriculum)
C: First part sounds like curry.
A & S: Okay... curry.
C:next, colon! Put together?
A and S:currycolon?
Here I was thinking of colons cooked in curry....(trust me not a nice imagination)
C:Add an O inbetween?
A and S:curryocoloncurryocoloncurryocolon...
Oh! CURRICULUM!!!!!

Yup. One of the few moments of craziness. I conclude playing taboo while drinking Green tea sure drives you nuts. :D After playing about 500 over cards we gave up. Decided to chill out and talk. :D Babbled nonsense on my part. HAHAHA. Averil and I disturbed Cheryl most of the time though. Her and her 'piggy-chan~'

I was really reluctant to go but I had to come home right? If not my mum would really kill me(slaughter actually.) Eventually we left at 5:30. I really didn't want to leave. Well, good times got to end right? Haha. The train ride home was, fun? We bounced to Jurong East and back cause it was so packed we couldn't even put our toes in. Anyway, I was so tired that I was nodding away in the train. But it was 100% pure fun today. And I'm thankful for it. :D

So thank you Averil for having us over today and withstanding our nonsense. :D It was really really fun and we shall do it again! And to Cheryl, thank you for inviting me to come along and for waiting for me when I was late. >.< Really, thank you guys for today! Love you both very very much. :D

Yup. End with a famous quote. (Averil told me this. Us actually.)
Confucious say: Time flies like an arrow and fruit flies like banana.

My first post in the new year. This really brings back many memories from the time this blog was started which was about 5 years ago? Wow. It's long.

That day blogs were like the "in" thing and so my best friend and I decided to create one together. :D But you know the usual stuff happened with PSLE ahead and soon to Sec 1, with us going our different ways so somehow or another, this blog became mine...

Let's just say I got mixed feelings about it? I am definitely sad that we somehow lost contact of each other. As in we hardly ever talk nowadays. BUT (there is always a but when it comes to things like these.) I'm really glad this blog became mine because this blog has really bacome my pillar of support that is strong enough to handle my anger, sadness, frustrations. I think this blog can really be called my other self. :)

I only noticed it that I always come to my blog when I'm angry (mostly family problems). So. Every now or then you'll see that my post are short, precise with lots of cursing and swearing or sometimes just pure emo. Yup. My true self I should say which is sometimes hidden from my friends. :D

Point is. 5 whole years and on-going. I can actually imagine me 30 years down the road and still posting on this blog. Won't that be cool? I mean, you get to see me posting my life as a 12-year old then a 16 then me having my first boyfriend then me having my first holiday trip with my friends round the world then me seeing my bro get married then me getting married then my sis getting her turn then me being an aunt and who knows 30 years is a long time I could even be a mum by then!!!

(Okay, I'm gonna get old. thinking about these things is making me go urgh.)

Back to the point. This. blog. is. old. Hahaha. Well, I hope it gets older! One mistake of mine was not recording down the date this blog was created but I still remember how it was created! Sure gave us hell lots of problems. I think the blogskin wouldn't fit. The tagbox was floating somewhere in cyberspace between the website of origin and my blogsite. I would really like to thank Chloe was fixing it up for us that day. We sure gave her many problems but she did it anyway. Though we aren't on friends terms but I would really like to thank you. :)

Anyway, haven't really had the time to post pics on the sentosa trip on this blog. I shall do it soon. (soon....) When I feel like it. xD

Yesterday it was going on and on that facebook tops the list for the most frequent website in US. Sayling how 8.93% of the poeple visit facebook. Here I am thinking,that is not me. Haha. Those of you who know me, my facebook acc is rotting away in the cyberspace. If I could imagine it, my accounts on the various websites are placed in drawers and I have a special drawer that falls under unused. The file in there would definitely be my facebook acc. HAH. Covered with dusts and all. Since I'm on this topic, I really feel like logging into my facebook account and see what happened while I was away.

On a side note. I am irrevocably, definitely and absolutely ADDICTED to Glee. Yup. There I typed it. That series is one of the few American series that I actually watch and admit that I'm addicted to. Well, like all shows, some of the characters there are to be hated. Like Quinn being a total bitch and all. Can you believe it? I actually hate Rachel. More of can't stand her actually. (She falls under the type of people I hate.) Other than that? It's a series I would give a two thumbs up for. I'm desperately trying to finish Season 1 before 2 hits the screen on 25th jan. Sad thing is that 25th Jan is just 2 days before I start school. Urgh.

Well, I don't mind buying the 2nd season. If we ever drop by JB again. :D This has been one hell of a long post so I shall stop here. Wanna know what's been going on lately? I stopped watching naruto and pre-stopped maple (I really have the phobia of partying people now. But I am making sure that I actually do a ludi PQ once. Haven't done it in my entire 16 years.)