I'm not going to write about my day today. I need some stress relief. I feel damn stressed up, even though exams are over and all.
I asked this question to Averil before. "Do you regret coming to this class."
When i think about it now, I regret it a bit. The people are great just that I really miss my ex classmates, especially my partner. Come to think of it, she was the best partner. Not that I'm complaining I hate my this year's partner. Its just that I find it hard to get along with her... I feel damn stressed out about my results no matter how many times I tell myself to do better, the worse scenario pops into my head.

Me dropping physics, coming last in class, failing english, everything. When I think about it, I only know one person in that class who I'm comfortable sharing my inner feelings with. I find myself thinking everyday what happens if I'm no longer friends with her? Who do I go to then? Sometimes, like now, I want to get rid of all these off my chest but I really really am at a lost to who I should go to... Unlike other people, even though I don't seem like it, I really have a hard time making friends.

This year I have to say its one of the most stressful year ever. Right now, I'm thinking on how to complete my brisbane project. I hate this part of me, thinking about unnecessary things, making myself even more stress. I find myself even going to the point of asking is this what I really want to do?? Is this right??? I really dunno.... If I had medication to numb my thoughts I wouldn't mind going on an overdose.

Seriously, at this rate I'm just stressing myself out. I'm just tired... really really tired. Not physically but mentally.... somehow by posting this, I feel even worse....


Lord, help me, please.