I hate myself. I seriously hate myself.
Starting of this year I thought Sec 3 was going to be different. I thought I would be different. But apparently not. I have no idea why I am the only one in the family who is like that.
Why do I find it hard to make friends?
Why do I end up being left behind again? Its like Sec 1 all over again. Sometimes, I wonder would it have been different if I left for another school?
See, this always happens. I end up thinking too much. I guess thinking being in a new class I could let my guard down a bit....

I think I really am adopted. My bro and sis doesn't seem to be having this problem. Practically everyone is their friend. I just end up being sticky all the same. On top of that I became quiet again... Always thinking about stuff.... Hate this part of me...

For the first time, I'm not looking forward to my birthday. Time and time again it has always been the same. How would this be any different? Sigh... I feel like crying my troubles out but the thing is I can't... I don't know why. I feel like telling someone all these but the words just won't come out. Omg, this sucks big time.

Want to know what I found out about myself this year?
I suck, I am lame and of course ultra stupid. Who could have guessed? I was so stupid that I took so long to find out I was a total jerk who sprouts nonsense and hurts people around me.
Maybe living a life alone ain't that bad after all...