The doctor said I may have pneumonia.

Sick again... This time it's worse. Had like fever of 39.1 degrees yesterday. Haha. And I wanted to do ting li with that. Really wrong time to fall sick. My mid years are like 6 days from now. OMG~~ Freaking out right now. Wait, looking on the bright side, its less then 3 weeks to play!!!
Now I must focus on getting good grades. But I can't when I feel like shit.

Last night, my fever was up again, so I was freezing cold and so I tried to sleep with just the fan but I woke up at 1 to feel freaking hot. Haha. So i switched on the air con and slept again. Next I woke up at 4 I think, and my nose started running. I was so pissed cause it wouldn't stop!!!! I used like 40 pieces of tissue last night. Now my nose hurts cause I blew it too much. So far this morning its still running and I finished two packets of tissue already now hitting on the box one. I think NTUC would love me if I were like this everyday. This morning I got a shock when I took my temp again. It was 38.9. Like 0.2 drop since yesterday. But now I feel cooler. I really hate missing school especially when its so close to the mid years. Haiz...

Ooops, need to take med.

Its freaking hot... Today was quite okay for me. When I look back to yesterday's post I guess I did sound very emo. Well, incase you are worried. I'm feeling fine now. I guess I just needed some time on my own. Haha.

Tonight is going to be my birthday dinner. :D I finally can watch my D gray man DVD!!!!! WOO!!!! The whole freaking series!!!!!! Wait, mid years come first. Haiz... Hardly studied yesterday and today I was practically running round the whole place. I finally had the chance to use the com and the day must be so hot. I wonder what will be my birthday presents. Haha. Surprise surprise. I can't believe it, this year is passing by damn fast. Its my birthday in 3 days time. Before I know it, here comes christmas followed by O level's!!!

Okay, Stephanie... thinking too far ahead. Haha. Surprisingly, I'm looking forward to school on monday. Cause it will then be one more day till ice cream party!!!! :DD

Guess that's all I'm talking about for today. Current mood now is relatively happy. :D

I hate myself. I seriously hate myself.
Starting of this year I thought Sec 3 was going to be different. I thought I would be different. But apparently not. I have no idea why I am the only one in the family who is like that.
Why do I find it hard to make friends?
Why do I end up being left behind again? Its like Sec 1 all over again. Sometimes, I wonder would it have been different if I left for another school?
See, this always happens. I end up thinking too much. I guess thinking being in a new class I could let my guard down a bit....

I think I really am adopted. My bro and sis doesn't seem to be having this problem. Practically everyone is their friend. I just end up being sticky all the same. On top of that I became quiet again... Always thinking about stuff.... Hate this part of me...

For the first time, I'm not looking forward to my birthday. Time and time again it has always been the same. How would this be any different? Sigh... I feel like crying my troubles out but the thing is I can't... I don't know why. I feel like telling someone all these but the words just won't come out. Omg, this sucks big time.

Want to know what I found out about myself this year?
I suck, I am lame and of course ultra stupid. Who could have guessed? I was so stupid that I took so long to find out I was a total jerk who sprouts nonsense and hurts people around me.
Maybe living a life alone ain't that bad after all...

I didn't go to school today. :D I was down with fever and stomach flu. Now the fever is gone but still have the stomach flu. Haha. I feel like the Lord is blessing me with a few days off as my March holiday. Because as some of you might have known I really didn't have that great a holiday.

I was doing some blog surfing just now, haha. It seems I'm quite outdated.

So I decided to post. You know, I finally understood what someone told me before.
It's really not great to have best friends cause it really hurts when they backstab you.
To me, it was a really good friend who did it. I thought I used to know her but as they say people do change. Sigh....

Now I'm really confused. Nevermind. I shan't say anymore. Its a secret for myself and myself only.

The beginning of today sucked. Literally.
Reached class after my run, Cheryl got mad at me. I mean seriously mad. I dunno why. Due to that, I refused to talk to her. When she's in that mood, I'll only get hurt both physically and by words either way.

After that was CE. We had washing of feet. :D I washed Sheryl's and she washed mine. The whole indoor sports hall was like filled with laughter and of course we got scolded. Saying we didn't treat this session with much holiness and solemnity. "But I mean come on, washing of feet in an indoor sports hall? The venue was all wrong. And we didn't really clam down to prepare ourselves..." That is what I am feeling; what I want to say. But its holy week and I am trying to change. As in from now on, I won't push the blame on anybody else but myself. :D

I am going to try. Changing myself will lead to others changing. And that is what I'm going to do.
Okay rushing for time. I'm gonna sum up my day in points. Of course from worst to best! :D

1. Didn't talked to her during recess.
2. didn't do chemistry
3. Mr Tang made me depressed with his 3 more weeks till exams.
4. Didn't bring chemistry pract. book to lab
5. She dao me.
6. Didn't take necip form had to rush back down
7. rushed off for piano
8. rained on the way
9. I got 41/50 for my bao zhang du hou gan!!!
10.She started talking to me
11. Scales was a okay!!!!
12. Tomorrow playing the piano in school!
13. Finished hw!!!
14. She called!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D

My first post in April! Its like my both good and bad month.
Good as in 17 more days till my birthday!
Bad that there is mid year coming up....

I don't care I am banning myself from the phone. Hahaha. I find that I'm using it too much. And I guess the other party is getting scolded too cause of me. Haha.

Had piano today. I guess you could say I'm quite happy
1. Teacher said my second piece was good! :D
2. She didn't test me my scales. :DD (cause I didn't practice)

in like an hour time, I leaving for cath class. Up next is mass. I'm such a bad catholic. Don't go for mass every week. Haha. Told that to my senior and she said if I didn't go for mass this week she's gonna kill me and drag me down for mass next week. Haha.

Yesterday had pt and then my senior showed me a new route where I can take 4 buses home. :D Maybe I'll show a certain someone the route some time soon. It's so much faster... But a long way to walk. Sadly to say. Haha. And its quite scary. I may get killed. Haha.

Considering my personality. I conclude I'm a happy person. Cause my sis pointed out that after every sentence there is a "haha" and I agree. If you receive msgs from me there is bound to be a 'haha' in all of them. :D Well, wei wei taught me that.... I kinda miss re. Haven't talked to her in a long time. Maybe I drop a call sometime soon. Hahaha.