5 words.
And 5 words it shall be.

I FINISHED MY FREAKING HOMEWORK!

:D

I won my 5 bucks. :D
After this day I hope life would be as per normal. Well almost at least. Still got that whole load of hw. I plan to finish A maths by tonight. Left with that stupid paper and I'm down with ss, geog and eng. If Cheryl heard about this, I will never see day light again. Come to think of it. I haven't talked to her in 2 days. And its still ongoing. It is going to continue until she wants to talk to me. :D (Strike)

According to my so called fool-proof plan, I am doing notes from fri till Sunday. By hook or by crook I must be done with all my notes for the upcoming tests. Seriously speaking I feel damn tired. And if you noticed that my posts had actually 1 month gap between them but now its everyday, well, this is like my source of comfort. Haha. How ironic. Comfort from
a non-living thing. To phrase it right, I express better with words like in letters or blogs. Have always been that way.

Sigh.... Another 20+ maths questions to go. Wish me luck. Ending with a short prayer today. Dinner time anyways.

(Dear God, please bless me with the courage and determination to finish the w/s by tonight.... )

Today was hw cramming day.Posting at midnight. Talk about pro man! :D Tomorrow (or should I say in exactly 12 and a half hours time) I would be in the bus on the way to mandai. I predict I would breakdown. Betting with myself 5 bucks. Either way the money would be mine. :D

Dam sleepy but I think I'll sleep after this. A big day ahead of me. My brain is like filled with so many things until I'm getting a headache. Wanna know my list?

1. How on earth am I to complete homework
2. I am screwed for geog project
3. I think Cheryl hates me. (That's why I'm on ..... not telling)
4. How will it be like after the cremation
5. How to cram in for my tests?
6. Fail la, fail la
7. Die la, Die la
8. My coffin will be brown
9. Shut up brain!

Yupp. A few things that my useless brain is thinking of now. 7 mins past midnight. Spacing out in front of the com and then listening to my grand uncle's children talking about phone, ipods, shares, and the guy I tell you has said **** at least 10 times... Sigh. Finally peace. I just notice I wonder alot. Hahaha. :D Now I'm wondering what to do tomorrow? SS? Geog? Or English? Or A maths. Haiz....

Maybe I'll drop a call, maybe I won't....

Today passed quite fast surprisingly. But I still have tonns of homework to do. It's almost as if it's never ending. But mainly cause I'm not touching it. Haha. Went to cheryl's house today. We were suppose to do hw, not that we never do or anything, but let's just say we slacked a bit. Fine make it alot. Haha.

We did Physics, Chemistry and yeah. That's all. Haha. So productive I know. For the first time in like a million years, I ate at longhouse. :D Omg, the ban mian was damn nice and spicy too. :D Snack on loads of cookies and chips, I tell you, if my mum found out, I'llbe dead meat. But its kind of lame to keep it a secret and post it on my blog where every-one CAN see. So smart of me right? I know. xD

Played wii at the last part. The bunny game was quite fun. It was very funny though. Sigh. I feel like typing about her brother but I shan't. He really pissed me off at the last part though. Bloody **** call me fat.... I should have retaliated. Wonder why I didn't. I really got to fix that part of me that is easily bullied. Hate it man! Argh! Piss me off. And I thought her brother wasn't bad.... I should make a mental note to not judge a book just by its cover.

Came back at around 5:45. :D Home sweet home. Went to bathe after sitting awhile and then had dinner. Tung hun with samosa and chilli sotong and some stir fried veggie not forgetting chicken with thai sauce. It was nice!!! I am suppose to do hw now but they seem to be so far awa even though they are just in the room next to me. Hahaha. Blame my inertia. Hahaha.

Guess I'll stop here for today. May post tmr if I've the time. :D

I wanted to post yesterday. But i guess I was too caught up with things.
Still am though.

I will always remember this march holiday. I still think this is a dream though. I sound like i'm typing a story. Hahaha. Friday the 13th, I wonder if the taboo is really true. I forgot to bring my comb, blouse and some books. And it was the last time I saw my grandmother.

I mean I do see her now, except its in a coffin. I remember the last conversation I had with her. She was telling me how rought my brother was with my sister. Haha. And I said bye to her. I kind of regret not hugging her. Yesterday was a shock to me. And it still is. I was thinking maybe its a nightmare that seems real. But who am I kidding?

7 in the morning, I arrived at my grandparents place. I still remember the position she was in when I reached upstairs. Her eyes were closed as if sleeping, mouth agap. Just that she was paler and colder. She had a bit of foam coming out but it looked like she was sleeping.

Of course I cried. I thought I wouldn't though cause I didn't for my grandfather. But maybe that was cause I wasn't that close to him. I'm kinda happy yet sad. I'm happy that she is finally relieved of her pain and suffering after so long but sad that she went away in the early morning when I wasn't there.

But my grandfather must be in a worse state then I'm in. Imagining waking up to find your wife dead eventhough she was up likce 2 hours ago... So now is the wake. You can never imagine the atmosphere yesterday, people crying, I felt like crap yesterday. And last night I couldn't sleep. Everyime I closed my eyes. I see my grandmother and nostalgia fills me. Hahaha. (So chim like )
But it was true. For the first time, I prayed myself to sleep; willing God to stop my brain from thinking for a moment so that I could sleep.

I really miss her, I really do. And now I'm thinking, what will happen if my grandfather dies? My other grandmother? My mum, dad??? Myself even... Sigh If I feel like this now, what will happen to me on wednesday? When the body is sent for cremation?

I'm really messed up right now. Never will I forget this, Never will I be deleting this.

For the first time, I only had maths hw!
So happy.
What i did today can be summerised in 3 words.
I fa dai-ed.

My animeseason finally gave me a good link to watch my season two!
I'm one happy girl! :D

I have a freaking a maths test this wed.
Deep down inside, I think I'm gonna fail.
I really don't understand the find all the values of k for x2-2x+8 if all the values for x is real.
i'm like ???????

Sigh. Physics is also another one.
I was suppose to do notes today. But my brain has been fried due to a maths.
And its only using 5% of my brain. I wonder what would 90% feel like.
Head might burst I guess.

Now sailing is gonna be twice a week. Time for studying will shrink even more...