Today was quite a good day for me :) Morning got up early or considered late for my mum. Now a days I noticed she has been scolding me more and more often. I think its cause of the bad experience she had. My bro wasn't considerbly good before and so she has the fear that I maybe like him. Still, I keep telling her I'm not him. I'm different but I guess I have to show her in order for her to believe it.

I went for piano and as usual I needed to improve my scales and timing for the pieces. Hahaha. What was interesting today was I went for cath class. My dad actually signed me up for it! I'm so happy! I went with Courteney and it was definately been a long while since I saw her. She cut her hair! Hahaha. More surprises came after that. Dorothy, Lisa, Angeline and Grace were all in that same classbut I just found out towards the start of my lesson that she just changed class. I really wanted to chat with her though. Great to hear that she's in the cath class before me though.

Went in and saw my "teacher" well not exactly a teacher. I found her quite scary but as the lesson proceeded, she's nice:D I ate a doughnut that was given. It was yummy it was like chocolate coated. My mum will kill me if she ever found out that I ate it. Since it was Easter we were given choco egg!!!

Just before class started, these two girls came in and started shouting "SOMEONE GOT MENSE!" I was like oh my gosh! There was boys in my class too. I was thinking the person who has it is feeling very bad right now. The helper then told them to stop laughing. It was kind of mean after all.

Now am posting at relative's place. My sis just licked a boy's spoon just cause there was chocolate. Disgusting! There is this boy there which irritates the heck out of me I tell you. He's very rude and spoilt like anything. My bro ask him if we could use the com and he said yes but my bro did not hear and he repeated and the boy said Don't you understand the meaning of yes? I was like wth?!?

Oh I nearly forgot now there will be a lyric's quote! At every end of a post! Just thought about it in the car! Well, that's all! Post tmr! :D

Lyric's Quote: When you call, my heart stops beating, When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding... - Simple Plan "I can wait forever"

Sorry about my previous post. I sounded so emo. haha. I can't believe I actually posted that. Now I'm considering to delete it. I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings. I'M VERY SORRY!!! I was just pissed cause that day wasn't really my day. I'm sorry Sherry! I didn't mean to put all the blame onto you. You have enough problems and I'm just making things even worse for you. I'm sorry.

I'm very sorry Joan. I know sometimes I make you pissed and irritated with me and get sick of my complaining but I'm really glad to have someone to tell my problems too. I'm sorry for behaving that way. I'm sorry Clarice. I know sometimes I can get on your nerve too when I didn't mean to.

Yesterday well guess what's new? I got scolded by my mum. well, she said my answer to her question was bullshit. Twice I heard her say it... sigh. Some times I feel like my brother has it better than me. Well, doesn't matter anyway. Bullshit then bullshit. Like I care.

Today during Science I was like nodding away for one whole period. I was super tired but Joan has it worse than me. So i'm in no place to complain. I'm gonna study cram study! a.k.a SCS!!! Just made it up! hahaha. We (Natalie, Clare and Emelyn stayed for banner painting. It was rather plain. Red House was very nice! I loved the bird. haha. After that I managed to persuade Clare to come with us to go J8. We took 59 there and bought YOUGURT!!! YAMI YOUGURT!!! It's so yummy!! Guess that explain's why its name is Yami yougurt. After that we went look see look see and I took 410 with Nat and Emelyn. It was very dark and I was hoping it won't rain but It was pouring when I reached my stop. I saw a snail and I caught it. haha. I dunno what to do with it now though. Well playing wahjong with KingKong well, post tmr! :D

Truth

I redid my blogskin again. It's definately better than my previous one! :D

Was reading a few stuff just now and I thought about some things. People who are popular seem to follow other people's personality the way they speak and all just to be popular. Is it really worth it? People change. This way is it for the better or the worse?

It seems to me that popular people are never who they really are. They follow until they don't really know who they are of what their true self is. That's how i feel towards my brother. He's changed lately. I just can't figure it out.

He's kind and all but popularity changed him. I really wonder is Secondary life like this? I'm confused with my feelings. I don't know who is the real me right now. I act the way I please but sometimes I get carried away and be irritating towards people. Almost once the words come out, I feel regret. But I can't call my words back. I try to change, be more careful of what I say.

Everyday before school I worry, will they talk to me? Or will they be like last year and ignore me? I try my best but I can't help feeling sort of lonely. That's when I start asking myself, is it me? What did I do wrong? Am I pissing them off with my over-reaction to things? I really don't know. Last week things were okay but I gave in too much of myself now they are ignoring me again. It's now back to a one word reply. Are things suppose to turn out like this? I don't know anymore.

Some times things changes, but will this ever change? I hate myself for being this pathetic me...

Happiness is a bliss?

Today was quite alright. Maths was boring as usual. -.-" Can't be bothered to go to her website. I changed seats too! haha. Now i'm at the back in the center so will be able to see the board more clearly instead of reflection from the windows. haha. I have like so many bloody projects coming up and my blog is practically half dead. haha. I wonder how to make it more lively though. Half of me want to re-do the blogskin but the other half is screaming NO! Cause it's pretty. I mean I love the snow and the feathers. Doubt can ever find one that is just as good. Haiz... My english project was screwed, told to re-do the whole thing and I have no idea what to write currently or what to say as of matter a fact. EL com tmr and I'm sort of done with the slides but i'm screwed for that too. Two people did the same thing and One won't give in to re-do! I'm very pissed cause we may be presenting tmr but we have no slides! WHAT CAN BE WORSE??? Anyway its not my marks that will be affected. I tell myself to not care but that's the problem! I CAN'T NOT CARE! I ask them to try and just give in but none listens! NONE! I can't see what is the bloody problem I already did more than my share, what else do you want me to do?!? Why is life like this??? Sec 2 life sucks. literally. this is most of my problems though... :(

Okay now I feel better. After letting all out. I went to Malaysia for good friday week. It really did rain! Thunderstorm to be precise. I went with distant cousin and family.. Quite alright just that I couldn't finish my lit hw. Hahaha. come to think of it my birthday is less than a month away. Last year's one wasn't one of my favourite. But recently I've been feeling a change. A good change. Wonder what this year's one would be like? Good or bad? Wish I could see :)