Now i feel horrible, i feel lethargic.I feel so messed up inside.
first our class chairperson wants to quit
no body to take her place the whole class is in a mess
I'm in a mess my emotions are in a mess
i dunno whether to cry or laugh or smile or shout or scream
i juz feel so worn out, tired,sick

All i did next was go out and have lunch with wei wei qian ying and Viviena
I don't always get this chance to hang out with my friends.
I was good to my parents i obeyed them what time to come home and
even asked for their permission
But when i came home i told my mum
"I have sore throat"
Juz this sentence she started scolding me
"SEE! THIS IS WAD HAPPEN IF YOU GO OUT SO MUCH I BAN YOU FRM GOING OUT HE REST OF THE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!"
I was shocked
this friday i wanted to attend Wei Wei's church coz i had promised so many people
I pleaded with her but she said no
Later i tried but before i could speak she hugged me
and said
"You have been going out too much ok? Your grandmother is right. I let you go out once and you go out so many times! I don't want you to become like ur brother like that! Play play play."
I was utterly shocked. Since when do I go out to play.Do i ever do that???
All i went was today to have lunch
I went last friday coz i promised Wei Wei and saturday coz it was school work
U CALL THAT MANY???
I don't even come home late. I still come home for lunch not like my bro
When will you ever learn
I'M DIFFERENT FROM MY BROTHER!
I'M NOT LIKE HIM
I DON'T ACT LIKE HIM!
I DON'T EVEN FOLLOW HIM!
I wanted to go this friday coz its the only time where i get to meet new friends
which are nice and worries about you not like my class
why do you always have to doubt me????
am i really that hard to trust?

But I really want to thank Viviena.
Your words really helped me alot
I'm really glad to have a friend like you
You really made me quite happy after hearing what you had to say
I love you!!!!! THANKS.....