Sunday, April 26, 2009

Friday, April 24, 2009

Sick again... This time it's worse. Had like fever of 39.1 degrees yesterday. Haha. And I wanted to do ting li with that. Really wrong time to fall sick. My mid years are like 6 days from now. OMG~~ Freaking out right now. Wait, looking on the bright side, its less then 3 weeks to play!!!
Now I must focus on getting good grades. But I can't when I feel like shit.

Last night, my fever was up again, so I was freezing cold and so I tried to sleep with just the fan but I woke up at 1 to feel freaking hot. Haha. So i switched on the air con and slept again. Next I woke up at 4 I think, and my nose started running. I was so pissed cause it wouldn't stop!!!! I used like 40 pieces of tissue last night. Now my nose hurts cause I blew it too much. So far this morning its still running and I finished two packets of tissue already now hitting on the box one. I think NTUC would love me if I were like this everyday. This morning I got a shock when I took my temp again. It was 38.9. Like 0.2 drop since yesterday. But now I feel cooler. I really hate missing school especially when its so close to the mid years. Haiz...

Ooops, need to take med.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Its freaking hot... Today was quite okay for me. When I look back to yesterday's post I guess I did sound very emo. Well, incase you are worried. I'm feeling fine now. I guess I just needed some time on my own. Haha.

Tonight is going to be my birthday dinner. :D I finally can watch my D gray man DVD!!!!! WOO!!!! The whole freaking series!!!!!! Wait, mid years come first. Haiz... Hardly studied yesterday and today I was practically running round the whole place. I finally had the chance to use the com and the day must be so hot. I wonder what will be my birthday presents. Haha. Surprise surprise. I can't believe it, this year is passing by damn fast. Its my birthday in 3 days time. Before I know it, here comes christmas followed by O level's!!!

Okay, Stephanie... thinking too far ahead. Haha. Surprisingly, I'm looking forward to school on monday. Cause it will then be one more day till ice cream party!!!! :DD

Guess that's all I'm talking about for today. Current mood now is relatively happy. :D

Friday, April 17, 2009

I hate myself. I seriously hate myself.
Starting of this year I thought Sec 3 was going to be different. I thought I would be different. But apparently not. I have no idea why I am the only one in the family who is like that.
Why do I find it hard to make friends?
Why do I end up being left behind again? Its like Sec 1 all over again. Sometimes, I wonder would it have been different if I left for another school?
See, this always happens. I end up thinking too much. I guess thinking being in a new class I could let my guard down a bit....

I think I really am adopted. My bro and sis doesn't seem to be having this problem. Practically everyone is their friend. I just end up being sticky all the same. On top of that I became quiet again... Always thinking about stuff.... Hate this part of me...

For the first time, I'm not looking forward to my birthday. Time and time again it has always been the same. How would this be any different? Sigh... I feel like crying my troubles out but the thing is I can't... I don't know why. I feel like telling someone all these but the words just won't come out. Omg, this sucks big time.

Want to know what I found out about myself this year?
I suck, I am lame and of course ultra stupid. Who could have guessed? I was so stupid that I took so long to find out I was a total jerk who sprouts nonsense and hurts people around me.
Maybe living a life alone ain't that bad after all...

Thursday, April 09, 2009

I didn't go to school today. :D I was down with fever and stomach flu. Now the fever is gone but still have the stomach flu. Haha. I feel like the Lord is blessing me with a few days off as my March holiday. Because as some of you might have known I really didn't have that great a holiday.

I was doing some blog surfing just now, haha. It seems I'm quite outdated.

So I decided to post. You know, I finally understood what someone told me before.
It's really not great to have best friends cause it really hurts when they backstab you.
To me, it was a really good friend who did it. I thought I used to know her but as they say people do change. Sigh....

Now I'm really confused. Nevermind. I shan't say anymore. Its a secret for myself and myself only.

Monday, April 06, 2009

The beginning of today sucked. Literally.
Reached class after my run, Cheryl got mad at me. I mean seriously mad. I dunno why. Due to that, I refused to talk to her. When she's in that mood, I'll only get hurt both physically and by words either way.

After that was CE. We had washing of feet. :D I washed Sheryl's and she washed mine. The whole indoor sports hall was like filled with laughter and of course we got scolded. Saying we didn't treat this session with much holiness and solemnity. "But I mean come on, washing of feet in an indoor sports hall? The venue was all wrong. And we didn't really clam down to prepare ourselves..." That is what I am feeling; what I want to say. But its holy week and I am trying to change. As in from now on, I won't push the blame on anybody else but myself. :D

I am going to try. Changing myself will lead to others changing. And that is what I'm going to do.
Okay rushing for time. I'm gonna sum up my day in points. Of course from worst to best! :D

1. Didn't talked to her during recess.
2. didn't do chemistry
3. Mr Tang made me depressed with his 3 more weeks till exams.
4. Didn't bring chemistry pract. book to lab
5. She dao me.
6. Didn't take necip form had to rush back down
7. rushed off for piano
8. rained on the way
9. I got 41/50 for my bao zhang du hou gan!!!
10.She started talking to me
11. Scales was a okay!!!!
12. Tomorrow playing the piano in school!
13. Finished hw!!!
14. She called!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D

Saturday, April 04, 2009

My first post in April! Its like my both good and bad month.
Good as in 17 more days till my birthday!
Bad that there is mid year coming up....

I don't care I am banning myself from the phone. Hahaha. I find that I'm using it too much. And I guess the other party is getting scolded too cause of me. Haha.

Had piano today. I guess you could say I'm quite happy
1. Teacher said my second piece was good! :D
2. She didn't test me my scales. :DD (cause I didn't practice)

in like an hour time, I leaving for cath class. Up next is mass. I'm such a bad catholic. Don't go for mass every week. Haha. Told that to my senior and she said if I didn't go for mass this week she's gonna kill me and drag me down for mass next week. Haha.

Yesterday had pt and then my senior showed me a new route where I can take 4 buses home. :D Maybe I'll show a certain someone the route some time soon. It's so much faster... But a long way to walk. Sadly to say. Haha. And its quite scary. I may get killed. Haha.

Considering my personality. I conclude I'm a happy person. Cause my sis pointed out that after every sentence there is a "haha" and I agree. If you receive msgs from me there is bound to be a 'haha' in all of them. :D Well, wei wei taught me that.... I kinda miss re. Haven't talked to her in a long time. Maybe I drop a call sometime soon. Hahaha.

Friday, March 20, 2009

5 words.
And 5 words it shall be.

I FINISHED MY FREAKING HOMEWORK!

:D

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I won my 5 bucks. :D
After this day I hope life would be as per normal. Well almost at least. Still got that whole load of hw. I plan to finish A maths by tonight. Left with that stupid paper and I'm down with ss, geog and eng. If Cheryl heard about this, I will never see day light again. Come to think of it. I haven't talked to her in 2 days. And its still ongoing. It is going to continue until she wants to talk to me. :D (Strike)

According to my so called fool-proof plan, I am doing notes from fri till Sunday. By hook or by crook I must be done with all my notes for the upcoming tests. Seriously speaking I feel damn tired. And if you noticed that my posts had actually 1 month gap between them but now its everyday, well, this is like my source of comfort. Haha. How ironic. Comfort from
a non-living thing. To phrase it right, I express better with words like in letters or blogs. Have always been that way.

Sigh.... Another 20+ maths questions to go. Wish me luck. Ending with a short prayer today. Dinner time anyways.

(Dear God, please bless me with the courage and determination to finish the w/s by tonight.... )
Today was hw cramming day.Posting at midnight. Talk about pro man! :D Tomorrow (or should I say in exactly 12 and a half hours time) I would be in the bus on the way to mandai. I predict I would breakdown. Betting with myself 5 bucks. Either way the money would be mine. :D

Dam sleepy but I think I'll sleep after this. A big day ahead of me. My brain is like filled with so many things until I'm getting a headache. Wanna know my list?

1. How on earth am I to complete homework
2. I am screwed for geog project
3. I think Cheryl hates me. (That's why I'm on ..... not telling)
4. How will it be like after the cremation
5. How to cram in for my tests?
6. Fail la, fail la
7. Die la, Die la
8. My coffin will be brown
9. Shut up brain!

Yupp. A few things that my useless brain is thinking of now. 7 mins past midnight. Spacing out in front of the com and then listening to my grand uncle's children talking about phone, ipods, shares, and the guy I tell you has said **** at least 10 times... Sigh. Finally peace. I just notice I wonder alot. Hahaha. :D Now I'm wondering what to do tomorrow? SS? Geog? Or English? Or A maths. Haiz....

Maybe I'll drop a call, maybe I won't....

Monday, March 16, 2009

Today passed quite fast surprisingly. But I still have tonns of homework to do. It's almost as if it's never ending. But mainly cause I'm not touching it. Haha. Went to cheryl's house today. We were suppose to do hw, not that we never do or anything, but let's just say we slacked a bit. Fine make it alot. Haha.

We did Physics, Chemistry and yeah. That's all. Haha. So productive I know. For the first time in like a million years, I ate at longhouse. :D Omg, the ban mian was damn nice and spicy too. :D Snack on loads of cookies and chips, I tell you, if my mum found out, I'llbe dead meat. But its kind of lame to keep it a secret and post it on my blog where every-one CAN see. So smart of me right? I know. xD

Played wii at the last part. The bunny game was quite fun. It was very funny though. Sigh. I feel like typing about her brother but I shan't. He really pissed me off at the last part though. Bloody **** call me fat.... I should have retaliated. Wonder why I didn't. I really got to fix that part of me that is easily bullied. Hate it man! Argh! Piss me off. And I thought her brother wasn't bad.... I should make a mental note to not judge a book just by its cover.

Came back at around 5:45. :D Home sweet home. Went to bathe after sitting awhile and then had dinner. Tung hun with samosa and chilli sotong and some stir fried veggie not forgetting chicken with thai sauce. It was nice!!! I am suppose to do hw now but they seem to be so far awa even though they are just in the room next to me. Hahaha. Blame my inertia. Hahaha.

Guess I'll stop here for today. May post tmr if I've the time. :D

Sunday, March 15, 2009

I wanted to post yesterday. But i guess I was too caught up with things.
Still am though.

I will always remember this march holiday. I still think this is a dream though. I sound like i'm typing a story. Hahaha. Friday the 13th, I wonder if the taboo is really true. I forgot to bring my comb, blouse and some books. And it was the last time I saw my grandmother.

I mean I do see her now, except its in a coffin. I remember the last conversation I had with her. She was telling me how rought my brother was with my sister. Haha. And I said bye to her. I kind of regret not hugging her. Yesterday was a shock to me. And it still is. I was thinking maybe its a nightmare that seems real. But who am I kidding?

7 in the morning, I arrived at my grandparents place. I still remember the position she was in when I reached upstairs. Her eyes were closed as if sleeping, mouth agap. Just that she was paler and colder. She had a bit of foam coming out but it looked like she was sleeping.

Of course I cried. I thought I wouldn't though cause I didn't for my grandfather. But maybe that was cause I wasn't that close to him. I'm kinda happy yet sad. I'm happy that she is finally relieved of her pain and suffering after so long but sad that she went away in the early morning when I wasn't there.

But my grandfather must be in a worse state then I'm in. Imagining waking up to find your wife dead eventhough she was up likce 2 hours ago... So now is the wake. You can never imagine the atmosphere yesterday, people crying, I felt like crap yesterday. And last night I couldn't sleep. Everyime I closed my eyes. I see my grandmother and nostalgia fills me. Hahaha. (So chim like )
But it was true. For the first time, I prayed myself to sleep; willing God to stop my brain from thinking for a moment so that I could sleep.

I really miss her, I really do. And now I'm thinking, what will happen if my grandfather dies? My other grandmother? My mum, dad??? Myself even... Sigh If I feel like this now, what will happen to me on wednesday? When the body is sent for cremation?

I'm really messed up right now. Never will I forget this, Never will I be deleting this.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

For the first time, I only had maths hw!
So happy.
What i did today can be summerised in 3 words.
I fa dai-ed.

My animeseason finally gave me a good link to watch my season two!
I'm one happy girl! :D

Sunday, March 01, 2009

I have a freaking a maths test this wed.
Deep down inside, I think I'm gonna fail.
I really don't understand the find all the values of k for x2-2x+8 if all the values for x is real.
i'm like ???????

Sigh. Physics is also another one.
I was suppose to do notes today. But my brain has been fried due to a maths.
And its only using 5% of my brain. I wonder what would 90% feel like.
Head might burst I guess.

Now sailing is gonna be twice a week. Time for studying will shrink even more...

Saturday, January 31, 2009

My second post!
Gonna be short though...
I've been so busy. Got 6 tests coming up.
And confirmation on hand.
I've just been told that I'd be having a camp this march hols.
And there is also the life sciences program.

There goes my March hols.
But I'm very happy that this monday is a holiday!
I'm gonna do my notes. If not I won't get anymore chances,
:D

I still have e maths hw, zhou ji, ss research. I'm goona do those once I reach my parent's place.
I just came home from cath class. My one and only break. Then its d gray man in an hours time.
Come to think of it I haven't watched Bleach...

Life is suddenly so stressful.
Only one month has passed...
Here's a question to think about.

Why is snow white?
(I love being philosophical)
Because it has long fogotten its original colour.

Like us humans, we wear many masks and soon forget our original "selves"... :D

Friday, January 09, 2009

WELCOME 2009!!!

Reason why I haven't posted for 2009 yet was cause I was so busy! 5 days into school and I have enough hw to last for 2 weeks!

Sigh. I really miss 2/3. I'm not that used to my class yet. With all the scholars and new people. The only person which was from 2/3 with me now is Julia. I got to admit she's okay, once I did get to know her. I only know 2 scholars. One is Daryl and Fei Fei.

They are really friendly (not to forget smart.) And now I've maths everyday, which means I get headache everyday. Seriously, I think I'm slow... I take like 2-4 mins longer to grasp the concept than the scholars. There is one scholar I really one to know and that is Shelia. I dunno but she reminds me of someone. I can't rmb who... Haha. She's quite funny also. A lot of things happened this past week... But I'm too tired to list them out. It feels like I've been attending school for one month already....

Well, at a glimpse, I took height and weight today, guess I'll be in taf club again...And the stupid Mr Chan said "What have you been eating?!?" Bloody idiot.... I lost weight already!!!! Can't help that I'm born with big bones okay.... So it's not all fats....

Okay, its friday!!! At last. Gonna read manga.... I haven't for a long long time... Thanks to hw. Will post next sat. Friday got sailing. I skipped today's one cause I'm sick! :D Down with flu. Once its cured, I'm running E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y!

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I finally found a show to substitute my sis's "night show" (She must watch something every night before she falls asleep. So I call it her night show. It changes from time to time, before I found it, she was watching scooby-doo -.-")

It was The Nightmare before Christmas! I know its kinda late to watch that show but at least its better than scooby- doo. Sigh. I'm really starting the count down till school starts... I labelled my sis's and my school books today, got my dusty school bag out from the storeroom, found my dusty black school file, cleared its contents, printed the timetable and did my chinese hw!!!! Somehow today was like preparing for school.... I'm embracing 2009 on the last day of 2008!!!

I tell myself starting this friday I'm gonna study like shit. But I don't think it'll happen. Haha. But I really cannot slack. Sec 3 is important and after that I'll be sitting for my O's. Fast.



My last post for 2008 ends here.
To my friends who are going to a different class than me,
Hope you get good teachers,
Pray you get good grades,
Enjoy your last two years in IJ Sec!
Love you guys!

Monday, December 29, 2008

My replies to taggs: (In special colours!)

Clara: Hey!!!! Sorry for the late reply.... I think I should drop a call.... Maybe tonight. Haha. Yeah. I don't mind running. Got to lose weight anyway. Haha. What video did Rachel make? I didn't know she made one. Yeah I miss you too. Okay definately calling you tonight. Haha.

Mel: Heys! Merry Christmas to you too. Happy Boxing day to you too! Even though it's like a kinda late wish...

Riley: Hahaha. Yeah I forgot to tell you I changed my blogskin. Okay. Will tag.
I actually wanted to post on christmas day but I was so tired when I came back from the lunch party and stuff. And from Friday till Sunday, I was in Malaysia. I did bring the laprop. Well, to be more specific, my dad brought it. But there was no internet connection so I had no access to this wonderful padge to post.

But I could at least listen to songs and I played pinball and minesweeper with my sis and my brother from another mother. (Distant relative; I forgot the link; my mum's great great great grandmother was friends with her best friend's great great great grandmother or something like that. Long story.)

Well, I finally got my stupid com's mouse replaced!!! :D The other one kept disconnecting from the com and stuff. Loads of problems. And I was very close to smashing the whole com cause of it. I went to central today with my mum and sis. We went back to the super cool clothes shop that I like. I bought like 7 pieces + 4 pieces for my mum = $915.85 Almost a thousand gone. But it was worth it. Solve my chinese new year clothes problem. While I was at the toilet there, someone vandalised the toilet roll cover thingy by writting "Everyone shld just die!" With the word "Die!" Around it. Kinda emo if you ask me. I was laughing though. Haha.

After that I went to United Square and I saw Annette! At first I couldn't recognise her. I was like o.O She looks familiar. hahaha. I wasn't that close to her anyway. She didn't notice me so I didn't say anything. Even if she did see me she probably thought the same thing as me. Pretend she wasn't there. I was so tired when I reached home. Partially cause I ran from my parents' place to my grandparents' place! It was 5km. And surprisingly I only took 50 mins. I was like expecting an hour plus. Sadly, I didn't run the whole way. I gave up once I reached faber Garden and walked home from there. Haha. :D But it was still 4km which I ran.

My bro ran the same distance and he reached home within 30mins. Haiz... So fit. Oh while I was at Malaysia, we went to this dvd shop at city Square and they sold D.Gray Man the WHOLE SEASON!!!!! :DDDD And original some more!!!! It's my next year birthday present!!! Hahaha. I wanted to watch it yesterday and my dad was like watch it! Open then when its your birthday, we just wrap it up and give it to you. =.=" My mum and I objected it. What present would it be if it was already opened?????

Dads now of these days....
Anyway, I'm so happy!!! Midnight Secretary came out new chpt!!!!!!! Okay, I'm gonna bathe then read it. Will post tomorrow. I promise.

One add up. I finished the notebook by Nicholas Sparks. Its one of the saddest book I've ever read and I actually cried while reading. That's a first for me. Its also very sweet. Something better than twilight I find. :D More touching. But both are totaly different so I can't really compare.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Just had to put the presents under the tree.

Post PART II

So I went to NTUC at AMK Hub and I kept bumping into people. I was walking down the lane when my mum who was walking in front of me suddenly moved backwards so I moved backwards too then I bumped into this woman's trolley and she looked angry. I think I heard her when tsk. I was like shit, shit, shit. Obviously I said sorry but she still looked like this >:( That was not all. After that I wanted to walk to my mum there then this guy was walking the opposite direction and I came into his path, so I moved to the right to let him pass but he followed me also and I was like wth. Then like the women he had this angry face and I was like Omg, shit, sorry sorry sorry... And he went hmph. After that, there was this old women standing next to me which I didn't see and then while grabbing something from my sis I accidentally elbowed her. This time I was like O.O OMG OLD WOMAN FREAK FREAK FREAK FREAK. But luckily she just rubbed her shoulder I was like "sorry sorry. " And bowing my head. Boy was I glad when we left that place.

Going to help again.