Freaking attitude problem.
What the fuck is wrong with you?

Its the last week of hols!!!!!!! Time sure flies by... It feels like it's the second week only especially sInce I was away for the first two weeks. Hahaha. Well, sad thing is that I've finally caught up with the latest epi of naruto!!!!!! Which means that I have to wait for a week before the next episode comes out!!!! Gahhhhhh.... I lack the patience for it. Especially since exams are coming up, I don't think I can watch every week though it sounds tempting!!!!! And I found a new anime!!!!! Hahahahaha. I am so killing myself for CTs.

Anyway, I've been finding the motivation to study cause since O's ended, I really had no idea what to study for next. During Sec 3 and 4, I motivated myself by telling myself that I will study hard to make my grandmother proud and not regret doing badly like in PSLE. that made me study damn hard. But after that, I'm asking myself, what's next? Yesterday, I finally got it. Haha. I'm gonna study hard and make it into a local Uni for both my brother's sake and mine. Since he can't get onto a local Uni, I'll do it for him. Then my sis can seek for help in either Uni she goes to, private or local. Haha. Kinda pathetic right? But it makes sense to me. So I'm gonna slam the A's with this dream of mine of attending a local uni, doing what I love cause I made it there with my hard work. :D

It really has been a while since i posted here. More than a month. Hahaha.
Well, a lot of things have been happening. Some good and some bad. Somehow this is like Sec 1 all over again. Where you notice that people aren't really the same as you thought they would be. I guess I have sort of changed? I can't tell. Who am I to judge myself?

I feel sad I guess. Can't think of any other ways to get my point across. Sometimes I think, are you really the same person I met years ago? Are you still the same kind, cheerful person I knew? Frankly, I have no idea what you are thinking now.

And soon, I've to say goodbye to someone really really special. Who knew we would meet 2 years later after we parted? Who knew you would mean so much to me now? You really brought a smile to my face. I really want you to know that and believe that it is true. But, hey, we got our phones right? That's what I'm trying to convince myself. I think the more I think about it, I may just cry while typing this.

Really wanted to type a long post but this day has really brought me surprises. Hah. If I had a limit to surprises. This is it, it is no wonder I've been having a deep gut feeling that today won't be as great as I thought it would be.

Now, it feels like I'm watching a movie of other people's lives and I'm a calefare here and there, not knowing what to do, what to say. Then again, I'm just feeling this at this moment. Well, I hope tmr (today since it is past midnight) will be better.


The ghost of you is all that I have left,
is all that I have left of you.